I noticed I have some comments in my blog that has been unanswered because I didn't notice them at all. In my Haloscan comment box, I discovered somebody said something in 2008 about my entry in 2004. Sigh! Sorry about that. I rarely have comments so I don't normally check them everyday. If you're using the blogger comments, it is better because I'll receive it in my email though sometimes I think blogger missed sending some too. Otherwise, I won't check for comments and thus your comments have been unanswered.
So I'm really sorry if you feel that you have been ignored. It wasn't my intention at all. Nice of you to drop by and leave some comments. If you urgently need to get in touch with me, like someone who is requesting some photos or something, there are ways to find my contact info through my profiles. So try harder next time OK? :)
But if you have nonconstructive and negative comments, you can keep it to yourself. I sleep with a clear conscience every night. There's no need to take that holier-than-thou attitude with me. Your comments are unwanted and unwelcome.
Sunflower gives the connotation of cheerfulness, bright, jolly, merry... you get the idea! However, if any content in this blog didn't fit the cheerfulness implied by its name, look at it this way... I'm putting down all the wretchedness, gloom, melancholy feeling in here so I can continue living up to the expectation of making the association to the sunflower.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Old School Friend
As I was getting out from the car, hubby who is still in the driver's seat tried to get the attention of a lady in blue baju kurung nearby. She could be someone he has worked with before. I looked at her and she looked at me and both of us hold out our hands and reach for each other. Hubby must have a very confuse look in the car hehehe...
She's my secondary school friend. We're from the school of the radiant princesses :) It has been a really long time. Yeah she knew hubby way before I even knew hubby. She's a company client and she told me they always argue before. If I have been married to hubby when they were working together, she said hubby would have a lot of complaints about her and I probably have no idea hubby's referring to my friend :)
In the car later, I was quiet. Hubby asked me why? Meeting and old friend must have been very nostalgic and I could be thinking about an old affairs. No lah dear hubby :) How can I have affairs in a girl school. Meeting an old friend brings me back to those time when I was an innocent wide-eyed girl with big dreams and aspirations. I don't know what exactly I wanted to do when I grow up but I wanted to be rich and successful and able to help my family.
Reality check:
- Help family... check!
- Successful... half way there.
- Rich... not even close. Heh!
I consider myself privileged to have a good education. But thinking about my big dreams and aspirations, I can't help but think about our education system which other successful people has also gone through but I didn't end up like the highflyer, rich and famous person I envision I would be. Just good education is not enough. There's something more than that. Some people got it, some people don't. Or is it?
... to be continued.
She's my secondary school friend. We're from the school of the radiant princesses :) It has been a really long time. Yeah she knew hubby way before I even knew hubby. She's a company client and she told me they always argue before. If I have been married to hubby when they were working together, she said hubby would have a lot of complaints about her and I probably have no idea hubby's referring to my friend :)
In the car later, I was quiet. Hubby asked me why? Meeting and old friend must have been very nostalgic and I could be thinking about an old affairs. No lah dear hubby :) How can I have affairs in a girl school. Meeting an old friend brings me back to those time when I was an innocent wide-eyed girl with big dreams and aspirations. I don't know what exactly I wanted to do when I grow up but I wanted to be rich and successful and able to help my family.
Reality check:
- Help family... check!
- Successful... half way there.
- Rich... not even close. Heh!
I consider myself privileged to have a good education. But thinking about my big dreams and aspirations, I can't help but think about our education system which other successful people has also gone through but I didn't end up like the highflyer, rich and famous person I envision I would be. Just good education is not enough. There's something more than that. Some people got it, some people don't. Or is it?
... to be continued.
Friday, March 13, 2009
The First 365 Days
It has been 365 days of love, bliss and challenges all rolled into one. I wouldn't change any of the experience. Seems like just yesterday we had our solemnization ceremony. To my dearest hubby, love you so much and may we have many more anniversaries :)
Friends have always ask how's married life. They're probably expecting comments like wish I've married earlier or something like that. It's like asking me to choose between Redang Island and Taman Negara. I love both with their own unique charm. I did not wish for anything different. I love my single life. It has its ups and downs but it has make me who I am today and also makes me appreciate what I have now. I enjoyed my single life tremendously. If you're still single, you should too.
And once you fell in love with that special someone, doing things you normally love doing will not feel the same anymore. All the time, you'll wish your loved one's around to share it with him/her. So once you fell in love, it's time to say 'sayonara' to your single life. Isn't it a natural progression in the circle of life? Being married gives a different kind of contentment and happiness. It has its ups and downs too but nothing beats the special feeling of having your joy doubled and sorrows halved. Not to mention having a big pillow that can hug back :)
Have a wonderful day everyone. I have had a fantastic week-long celebration. Come to think of it, we've celebrated every month mark of our solemnization ceremony and appreciate every day that we spent together as well as apart. May we continue celebrating right up to our golden years. Abang, can you imagine how it would be when we're both old and frail? I can't... but I'd love to spend it with you? :) *wink, hugs and kisses*
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Sunday, March 8, 2009
Making Things Happen
Today is International Women's Day. What does it mean to be a woman in the year 2009? To me, it's about finding our happiness, freedom and independence. It's about being able to do whatever I want to do, whenever I want to do it. I don't have the resources to do EVERYTHING I want yet but I have to start somewhere and this is the beginning of my freedom and independence. The contentment in knowing that I can do what I want instead of doing what's expected of me is liberating.
After so many years working for organizations, I strongly feel it's time for me to venture on my own. I love doing training. Working for a company, I can't always do the training I want and I sometimes have to take on last minute project of system training where the system was so unsophisticated and some participants would blame the trainer for their misery of learning a complicated and lousy application. I also have to mention there were so many problems with the computer training room, the many unintegrated system actually that nobody wants to be in charge of and technical support can really test your patience. Sometimes I can't make the training preparation up to the standard I want due to time constraint as there are other non-training related work obligations. So enough is enough.
It may sound like I'm complaining but that's not my intention. Those are some of the realities I have to face everyday. How can I achieve my dream if 'firefighting' is the order of the day? I have to make things happen for me and after careful consideration, I decided to venture on my own. This is probably a risky time to make such a decision but then again, when is it not a risky time? I have the utmost respect for all the entrepreneurs who dare make things happen for them. Now I have to find all the courage to make things happen for me.
I have a few full time job opportunities to consider and they were very tempting but I have to decline. I don't want to get caught in the same cycle. The new environment will be exciting in the beginning but after a while, it will be the same cycle all over again and I still will have not established myself in the industry. I have to remind myself over and over again about what I want. One of my weaknesses is getting sucked in with interesting projects. I don't even care about the money. Oppss.... let me rephrase that. Of course I care about the money but I don't put a high demand on salary. I got the highest increment in my department last year when the company was standardizing the pay at a more competitive market rate which shows how much underpaid I was.
So despite all the temptation, I must not loose sight of my goal. It wasn't easy. I have been fending for myself almost all my life. I'm not going to start relying on hubby now. It was a slow start in the beginning. People say getting your first million is hard but after that it'll get easier and easier. So getting the first training is hard but I hope it'll get easier after this too. The perk of working on my own is the freedom and independence it gave me. I can work anywhere if I have no training. Hence, I can follow hubby whenever I have the time. As long as I have my laptop, internet access and able to make phone calls I should be fine. I can even make my own appointments at other towns to market my training.
And I do want to spend more time with hubby. Few months back we have a rushed tapau lunch at home. I came back late to office for that. I have to wait for half an hour for the LRT. That was our first proper lunch at home. It kinda hit me in the face some of the things we don't have time to do together. We make adjustments the best way we can and as I always believe, we can't wait for things to happen. Sometimes, we have to make it happen. So this is as much a professional move as well as personal. I'm glad I make the decision and no one can ever say I did not pursue what I wish for. More family time as well as more professional time.
After so many years working for organizations, I strongly feel it's time for me to venture on my own. I love doing training. Working for a company, I can't always do the training I want and I sometimes have to take on last minute project of system training where the system was so unsophisticated and some participants would blame the trainer for their misery of learning a complicated and lousy application. I also have to mention there were so many problems with the computer training room, the many unintegrated system actually that nobody wants to be in charge of and technical support can really test your patience. Sometimes I can't make the training preparation up to the standard I want due to time constraint as there are other non-training related work obligations. So enough is enough.
It may sound like I'm complaining but that's not my intention. Those are some of the realities I have to face everyday. How can I achieve my dream if 'firefighting' is the order of the day? I have to make things happen for me and after careful consideration, I decided to venture on my own. This is probably a risky time to make such a decision but then again, when is it not a risky time? I have the utmost respect for all the entrepreneurs who dare make things happen for them. Now I have to find all the courage to make things happen for me.
I have a few full time job opportunities to consider and they were very tempting but I have to decline. I don't want to get caught in the same cycle. The new environment will be exciting in the beginning but after a while, it will be the same cycle all over again and I still will have not established myself in the industry. I have to remind myself over and over again about what I want. One of my weaknesses is getting sucked in with interesting projects. I don't even care about the money. Oppss.... let me rephrase that. Of course I care about the money but I don't put a high demand on salary. I got the highest increment in my department last year when the company was standardizing the pay at a more competitive market rate which shows how much underpaid I was.
So despite all the temptation, I must not loose sight of my goal. It wasn't easy. I have been fending for myself almost all my life. I'm not going to start relying on hubby now. It was a slow start in the beginning. People say getting your first million is hard but after that it'll get easier and easier. So getting the first training is hard but I hope it'll get easier after this too. The perk of working on my own is the freedom and independence it gave me. I can work anywhere if I have no training. Hence, I can follow hubby whenever I have the time. As long as I have my laptop, internet access and able to make phone calls I should be fine. I can even make my own appointments at other towns to market my training.
And I do want to spend more time with hubby. Few months back we have a rushed tapau lunch at home. I came back late to office for that. I have to wait for half an hour for the LRT. That was our first proper lunch at home. It kinda hit me in the face some of the things we don't have time to do together. We make adjustments the best way we can and as I always believe, we can't wait for things to happen. Sometimes, we have to make it happen. So this is as much a professional move as well as personal. I'm glad I make the decision and no one can ever say I did not pursue what I wish for. More family time as well as more professional time.
Life This Past Few Weeks
This past few weeks have been truly hectic for hubby and me. This week I've been busy with my training. The week before I followed hubby outstation again, at the same time preparing for my training.
Before the trip, I have my meetings, hubby has his meetings and we have to make all the preparations necessary for a I'm-only-telling-where-we'll-be-going-till-after-we-return trip and packing. Things from hubby's outstation trip the previous week had not even been fully washed and unpacked yet. He has to be on the road again.
- start journey about 3.30 p.m.
- some plan changes with hubby's company client
- reached Kuantan around 7 p.m.
- meet niece, have dinner, continue journey
- reached KT some time before midnight
- rest for the night
- start journey around 11 a.m.
- reached KB around 3-4 p.m.
- went to KB Mall to buy something and then dinner
- at night: prepare training material while hubby went for his meeting
- next day: prepare training material while hubby went for his meeting
- checkout in the afternoon and start journey
- lousy lunch
- reached Kuantan around 7 p.m.
- checked in and have a nice dinner
- rest for the night
- changed plan again the next morning
- journey back home
- up to the neck with my training preparation so late nights were expected
- meal was either toasted bread or sometimes almost forgotten
I was in Kuantan, KT and KB right in the town center and I didn't go anywhere. No shopping, no sightseeing, not even seeing friends.
Then, my training... it went as well as I could expect. This week hubby has to go outstation alone. I've missed you dear hubby :) The photos shared in my previous posts were taken from our earlier trips. I haven't got the time to upload them earlier.
I'm not complaining at all. If you're wondering how I can afford to follow hubby outstation often, I'll blog about it in my next entry :)
Before the trip, I have my meetings, hubby has his meetings and we have to make all the preparations necessary for a I'm-only-telling-where-we'll-be-going-till-after-we-return trip and packing. Things from hubby's outstation trip the previous week had not even been fully washed and unpacked yet. He has to be on the road again.
- start journey about 3.30 p.m.
- some plan changes with hubby's company client
- reached Kuantan around 7 p.m.
- meet niece, have dinner, continue journey
- reached KT some time before midnight
- rest for the night
- start journey around 11 a.m.
- reached KB around 3-4 p.m.
- went to KB Mall to buy something and then dinner
- at night: prepare training material while hubby went for his meeting
- next day: prepare training material while hubby went for his meeting
- checkout in the afternoon and start journey
- lousy lunch
- reached Kuantan around 7 p.m.
- checked in and have a nice dinner
- rest for the night
- changed plan again the next morning
- journey back home
- up to the neck with my training preparation so late nights were expected
- meal was either toasted bread or sometimes almost forgotten
I was in Kuantan, KT and KB right in the town center and I didn't go anywhere. No shopping, no sightseeing, not even seeing friends.
Then, my training... it went as well as I could expect. This week hubby has to go outstation alone. I've missed you dear hubby :) The photos shared in my previous posts were taken from our earlier trips. I haven't got the time to upload them earlier.
I'm not complaining at all. If you're wondering how I can afford to follow hubby outstation often, I'll blog about it in my next entry :)
The Birds
How I wish I have better camera so I can capture the birds flying free up in the sky. Or some that walks on land. Even that is proven to be a task. After a few unsuccessful attempts, I gave up and decided to watch and enjoy the view right before my eyes.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Otter and Rubbish
I got these photos and video while walking along the river during one of hubby's outstation trip. He went for a meeting. I walked for a while before continuing with my training preparation.
This view caught my attention. It was a real surprise. I wasn't expecting it at all. It was funny watching the otters walked weirdly on the old jetty. Like tip-toeing. It must have been hot on the platform.
I was worried watching one of the otter trying to eat rubbish. I don't know how to make it let go of that red plastic bag. But I saw both of them swam away later so that means it finally abandoned the plastic bag. Right?
This view caught my attention. It was a real surprise. I wasn't expecting it at all. It was funny watching the otters walked weirdly on the old jetty. Like tip-toeing. It must have been hot on the platform.
I was worried watching one of the otter trying to eat rubbish. I don't know how to make it let go of that red plastic bag. But I saw both of them swam away later so that means it finally abandoned the plastic bag. Right?
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