Sebagai peringatan untuk hati yang rapuh...
Setiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya...
Sabarlah dengan ujian Allah. Dia lebih mengetahui.
Bila Allah cepat makbulkan doamu….
Maka Dia menyayangimu….
Bila Dia lambat memakbulkan doamu…
Maka Dia sedang mengujimu….
Bila Dia tak makbulkan doamu….
Maka dia merancang sesuatu yang lebih baik untukmu….
Bersangka baiklah pada Allah dalam apa jua keadaan….
Kasih sayang Allah mendahului kemurkaan-Nya…
Sepuluh Sebab Kenapa Doa Ditolak Allah
1. Kamu mengenal ALLAH, tetapi kamu tidak tunaikan hak-haknya.
2. Kamu berkata bahawa kamu cinta kepada Rasulullah S.A.W tetapi kamu tinggalkan
sunnahnya.
3. Kamu telah membaca Al-Quran tetapi kamu tidak amal dengannya.
4. Kamu telah menggunakan nikmat-nikmat ALLAH, tetapi kamu tidak bersyukur padanya.
5. Kamu telah berkata bahawa syaitan itu musuh kamu, tetapi kamu tidak menentangnya.
6. Kamu telah berkata bahawa syurga itu benar, tetapi kamu tidak beramal untuknya.
7. Kamu telah berkata bahawa neraka itu benar, tetapi kamu tidak lari darinya.
8. Kamu telah berkata bahawa mati itu benar, tetapi kamu tidak bersedia untuk menghadapinya.
9. Kamu bangun dari tidur lalu kamu menceritakan segala keaiban orang lain tetapi kamu lupa tentang keaiban kamu sendiri.
10. Kamu kebumikan mayat sahabat kamu, kamu tidak pernah mengambil ikhtibar dari kematiannya.
Sunflower gives the connotation of cheerfulness, bright, jolly, merry... you get the idea! However, if any content in this blog didn't fit the cheerfulness implied by its name, look at it this way... I'm putting down all the wretchedness, gloom, melancholy feeling in here so I can continue living up to the expectation of making the association to the sunflower.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Monday, February 27, 2012
Gold Investment
You know, my brain gets very creative when I wanted to do my assignment. Out of the blue I kinda be reminded of gold price and gold investment. When I just got married, gold price is $104/gm. Now, its $194/gm. If you buy gold, there is no way you can sell it at its market price. Gold bar pun ada buying and selling price. Even more so when it comes to jeweleries that you wear. Shop would only buy from you at 75-80% of its market price. So let's say we take 75%, at $194 you would get $145.50.
Nett from purchase price is $145.50 - $104 = $41.50 (39.9% return for 4 years of investment)
Yearly return $41.50 / 4 = $10.375 i.e. 9.975% (simplest calculation which finance people might not agree with)
Is it worth it to invest in gold with that kind of return? Well... the return is certainly more than your EPF dividend of 6%; ASB dividend at 7.65 sen per unit and a bonus of 1.15 sen per unit (8.8 sen per unit); FD better tak payah tengok; Unit Trust can be risky but you can get more return (you can't wear them though) and property, certainly melambung2 return if it is on good location but it can give you headaches too.
So there you go... some rough calculation on gold investment. Now, back to kerja sekolah!!!
Nett from purchase price is $145.50 - $104 = $41.50 (39.9% return for 4 years of investment)
Yearly return $41.50 / 4 = $10.375 i.e. 9.975% (simplest calculation which finance people might not agree with)
Is it worth it to invest in gold with that kind of return? Well... the return is certainly more than your EPF dividend of 6%; ASB dividend at 7.65 sen per unit and a bonus of 1.15 sen per unit (8.8 sen per unit); FD better tak payah tengok; Unit Trust can be risky but you can get more return (you can't wear them though) and property, certainly melambung2 return if it is on good location but it can give you headaches too.
So there you go... some rough calculation on gold investment. Now, back to kerja sekolah!!!
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Confinement Menu
Confinement meals can be relatively easy to prepare provided all the ingredients are available. Bakar, stim, rebus are the generally accepted methods. In some instances, frying is also acceptable. Some very strict mom won't allow frying for confinement menu though.
I can't thank my ex-colleagues enough for the microwave as my wedding gift. It has been useful during fasting months and proven useful during confinement too.
Here are some of the confinement menu I've cooked this time...
- anchovies, sliced ginger, sliced garlic and black pepper, zapped in the microwave till crispy and crunchy.
- ikan selar masak pindang
- ikan selar/merah masak asam rebus
- ikan selar bakar (now ada daun pisang dari pokok sendiri, bakar dlm non-stick pan atas api paling kecil)
- ikan selar/kerisi goreng (hubby's favorite)
- sawi rebus (semalam rebus bayam merah... ada baca tak boleh dalam pantang but as far as I know, very nutritious so dah approaching 4 weeks berpantang, try lah makan)
- sawi putih masak lemak putih (only taken recently sebab ada santan)
- broccolli/carrot steam in the microwave (just take about 2.5 minutes on high)
- peria tumis dengan bilis, cili merah, bawang dan bawang putih blend kasar.
- daging masak halia/lada hitam (tanpa menumis)
- daging goreng lada hitam (very simple... with black pepper, onion & salt)
- tumis halia, bawang, bawang putih, lada hitam, air dan perasa (untuk buat kuah sikit bila lauk lain masak kering2 jer)
- sambal cili merah, halia, kunyit hidup, tomato, bawang, bawang putih, lada hitam, blender semua, then tumis, letak air asam jawa sikit & perasa secukup rasa (more for orang yang tak berpantang coz lauk lain x pedas)
- sambal tumis kosong... ada bawang hiris jer, yg lain diblend. Ikan bilis ambil dari stok ikan bilis garing (also more for orang yang tak berpantang coz lauk lain x pedas)
- ulam pegaga, pudina, kunyit hidup
- oren sunkist
- roti, biskut cream crackers
- milo, nestum + oat (3 in 1 pack), kopi cair (kopi pekat tak boleh terima), sunquick blackcurrant, herbal tea, air halia
Menu yang bertumis tu, only taken after two weeks confinement. I believe some has stricter confinement menu and some less stringent. Just follow what suits you best. Masa pregnant haritu, menu yang sesimple begini pun tak berdaya nak masak. Dah puas tapau or makan diluar haritu, kali ni hubby memang tumpang lauk orang berpantang walaupun ada masa tak kena dengan selera dia. Tapi ada masa, sampai bertambah dan meratah lauk.
Dah 4 weeks berpantang ni, dah mula ada rasa nak mengelat. Bertungku pun tak serajin dulu. Tapi masih gigih pakai stokin, berbengkung every day walaupun tak 24 hours, pakai minyak/losyen sirih atau halia dan makan ubat2an. Tablet haruan akan habis esok, phytonatal banyak lagi coz bottle 90 tablets... boleh sampai seratus hari tu. Now has also taken resdung tablet. Baru beli sebab dengan lauk berpantang yang tak sepatutnya ada unsur gatal pun, dok bersin pagi2. Cuba yang ni dulu, not working kita cari lain pulak. Tengah semangat untuk makan ubat ni.
Rasanya tu jer in my confinement menu. Walaupun ada menu lain dalam buku 'Rahsia Berpantang Cara Alami' ni, kita ambil yang mudah jer. Itu pun lepas masak, terasa penat.
I can't thank my ex-colleagues enough for the microwave as my wedding gift. It has been useful during fasting months and proven useful during confinement too.
Here are some of the confinement menu I've cooked this time...
- anchovies, sliced ginger, sliced garlic and black pepper, zapped in the microwave till crispy and crunchy.
- ikan selar masak pindang
- ikan selar/merah masak asam rebus
- ikan selar bakar (now ada daun pisang dari pokok sendiri, bakar dlm non-stick pan atas api paling kecil)
- ikan selar/kerisi goreng (hubby's favorite)
- sawi rebus (semalam rebus bayam merah... ada baca tak boleh dalam pantang but as far as I know, very nutritious so dah approaching 4 weeks berpantang, try lah makan)
- sawi putih masak lemak putih (only taken recently sebab ada santan)
- broccolli/carrot steam in the microwave (just take about 2.5 minutes on high)
- peria tumis dengan bilis, cili merah, bawang dan bawang putih blend kasar.
- daging masak halia/lada hitam (tanpa menumis)
- daging goreng lada hitam (very simple... with black pepper, onion & salt)
- tumis halia, bawang, bawang putih, lada hitam, air dan perasa (untuk buat kuah sikit bila lauk lain masak kering2 jer)
- sambal cili merah, halia, kunyit hidup, tomato, bawang, bawang putih, lada hitam, blender semua, then tumis, letak air asam jawa sikit & perasa secukup rasa (more for orang yang tak berpantang coz lauk lain x pedas)
- sambal tumis kosong... ada bawang hiris jer, yg lain diblend. Ikan bilis ambil dari stok ikan bilis garing (also more for orang yang tak berpantang coz lauk lain x pedas)
- ulam pegaga, pudina, kunyit hidup
- oren sunkist
- roti, biskut cream crackers
- milo, nestum + oat (3 in 1 pack), kopi cair (kopi pekat tak boleh terima), sunquick blackcurrant, herbal tea, air halia
Menu yang bertumis tu, only taken after two weeks confinement. I believe some has stricter confinement menu and some less stringent. Just follow what suits you best. Masa pregnant haritu, menu yang sesimple begini pun tak berdaya nak masak. Dah puas tapau or makan diluar haritu, kali ni hubby memang tumpang lauk orang berpantang walaupun ada masa tak kena dengan selera dia. Tapi ada masa, sampai bertambah dan meratah lauk.
Dah 4 weeks berpantang ni, dah mula ada rasa nak mengelat. Bertungku pun tak serajin dulu. Tapi masih gigih pakai stokin, berbengkung every day walaupun tak 24 hours, pakai minyak/losyen sirih atau halia dan makan ubat2an. Tablet haruan akan habis esok, phytonatal banyak lagi coz bottle 90 tablets... boleh sampai seratus hari tu. Now has also taken resdung tablet. Baru beli sebab dengan lauk berpantang yang tak sepatutnya ada unsur gatal pun, dok bersin pagi2. Cuba yang ni dulu, not working kita cari lain pulak. Tengah semangat untuk makan ubat ni.
Rasanya tu jer in my confinement menu. Walaupun ada menu lain dalam buku 'Rahsia Berpantang Cara Alami' ni, kita ambil yang mudah jer. Itu pun lepas masak, terasa penat.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Cara Menguatkan Rahim
The name of the procedure untuk ikat rahim is cervical cerclage. This is not the kind that prevents you from getting pregnant as there is another procedure named 'ikat rahim' for this purpose. After doing some reading, I found out there are two ways of doing cervical cerclage i.e. a stitch to the opening of the cervix and another one is the stitch on top of the uterus. Just google for the the term and I found info on Wikipedia, American Pregnancy Association and WebMD. I believe the one doctors suggested for me is the stitch on top of the uterus. Now that I have more info, I will have more questions for them during my next appointment.
In ratuhati.com forum, I found out some info too. Take Vitamin C to help strengthen the uterus. Some doa from the Qur'an...
Ayat tahsin ini dibaca dengan meletakkan tangan pada perut untuk mengukuhkan kandungan agar tidak mudah gugur.
1. Surah Fatir (فاطر) ayat 41:
إِنَّ اللَّهَ يُمْسِكُ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالأرْضَ أَنْ تَزُولا وَلَئِنْ زَالَتَا إِنْ أَمْسَكَهُمَا مِنْ أَحَدٍ مِنْ بَعْدِهِ إِنَّهُ كَانَ حَلِيمًا غَفُورًا (٤١)
Ertinya: Sesungguhnya Allah menahan dan memelihara langit dan bumi supaya tidak berganjak dari peraturan dan keadaan yang ditetapkan baginya dan jika keduanya (ditakdirkan) berganjak maka tidak ada sesiapapun yang dapat menahannya daripada berlaku demikian selain dari Allah. Sesungguhnya Dia Maha Penyabar, lagi Maha Pengampun.
2. Surah al-Hajj (الحج) ayat 65:
وَيُمْسِكُ السَّمَاءَ أَنْ تَقَعَ عَلَى الأرْضِ إِلا بِإِذْنِهِ إِنَّ اللَّهَ بِالنَّاسِ لَرَءُوفٌ رَحِيمٌ (٦٥)
Ertinya: Dan Dia pula menahan langit daripada runtuh menimpa bumi, kecuali dengan izinNya; sesungguhnya Allah Amat melimpah belas kasihanNya dan rahmatNya kepada umat manusia.
3. Kemudian berdoa:
يَا الله وَالَّذِي أَمْسِكِ السَّمَاءِ، أَمْسِكْ مَا فِي بَطْنِي
Ertinya: Ya Allah yang menahan langit, tahanlah apa yang ada dalam perutku ini (anak dalam kandungan).
4. Surah al-Kahfi (الكهف) ayat 14:
وَرَبَطْنَا عَلَى قُلُوبِهِمْ إِذْ قَامُوا فَقَالُوا رَبُّنَا رَبُّ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالأرْضِ لَنْ نَدْعُوَ مِنْ دُونِهِ إِلَهًا لَقَدْ قُلْنَا إِذًا شَطَطًا (١٤)
Ertinya: Dan Kami kuatkan hati mereka (dengan kesabaran dan keberanian), semasa mereka bangun (menegaskan tauhid) lalu berkata: Tuhan kami ialah Tuhan yang mencipta dan mentadbirkan langit dan bumi; kami tidak sekali-kali akan menyembah Tuhan yang lain dari padanya; jika kami menyembah yang lainnya bermakna kami memperkatakan dan mengakui sesuatu yang jauh dari kebenaran.
5. Surah al-Ra’d (الرعد) ayat 11:
يَحْفَظُونَهُ مِنْ أَمْرِ اللَّهِ... (١١)
Ertinya: Menjaganya (dari sesuatu bahaya) dengan perintah Allah.
Zikir Asma ul Husna: Ya Mubdi (The Originator, Initiatot), Ya Raqib 7x (The Watchful), Ya Jalil 21x (The Majestic)
We can only try...
In ratuhati.com forum, I found out some info too. Take Vitamin C to help strengthen the uterus. Some doa from the Qur'an...
Ayat tahsin ini dibaca dengan meletakkan tangan pada perut untuk mengukuhkan kandungan agar tidak mudah gugur.
1. Surah Fatir (فاطر) ayat 41:
إِنَّ اللَّهَ يُمْسِكُ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالأرْضَ أَنْ تَزُولا وَلَئِنْ زَالَتَا إِنْ أَمْسَكَهُمَا مِنْ أَحَدٍ مِنْ بَعْدِهِ إِنَّهُ كَانَ حَلِيمًا غَفُورًا (٤١)
Ertinya: Sesungguhnya Allah menahan dan memelihara langit dan bumi supaya tidak berganjak dari peraturan dan keadaan yang ditetapkan baginya dan jika keduanya (ditakdirkan) berganjak maka tidak ada sesiapapun yang dapat menahannya daripada berlaku demikian selain dari Allah. Sesungguhnya Dia Maha Penyabar, lagi Maha Pengampun.
2. Surah al-Hajj (الحج) ayat 65:
وَيُمْسِكُ السَّمَاءَ أَنْ تَقَعَ عَلَى الأرْضِ إِلا بِإِذْنِهِ إِنَّ اللَّهَ بِالنَّاسِ لَرَءُوفٌ رَحِيمٌ (٦٥)
Ertinya: Dan Dia pula menahan langit daripada runtuh menimpa bumi, kecuali dengan izinNya; sesungguhnya Allah Amat melimpah belas kasihanNya dan rahmatNya kepada umat manusia.
3. Kemudian berdoa:
يَا الله وَالَّذِي أَمْسِكِ السَّمَاءِ، أَمْسِكْ مَا فِي بَطْنِي
Ertinya: Ya Allah yang menahan langit, tahanlah apa yang ada dalam perutku ini (anak dalam kandungan).
4. Surah al-Kahfi (الكهف) ayat 14:
وَرَبَطْنَا عَلَى قُلُوبِهِمْ إِذْ قَامُوا فَقَالُوا رَبُّنَا رَبُّ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالأرْضِ لَنْ نَدْعُوَ مِنْ دُونِهِ إِلَهًا لَقَدْ قُلْنَا إِذًا شَطَطًا (١٤)
Ertinya: Dan Kami kuatkan hati mereka (dengan kesabaran dan keberanian), semasa mereka bangun (menegaskan tauhid) lalu berkata: Tuhan kami ialah Tuhan yang mencipta dan mentadbirkan langit dan bumi; kami tidak sekali-kali akan menyembah Tuhan yang lain dari padanya; jika kami menyembah yang lainnya bermakna kami memperkatakan dan mengakui sesuatu yang jauh dari kebenaran.
5. Surah al-Ra’d (الرعد) ayat 11:
يَحْفَظُونَهُ مِنْ أَمْرِ اللَّهِ... (١١)
Ertinya: Menjaganya (dari sesuatu bahaya) dengan perintah Allah.
Zikir Asma ul Husna: Ya Mubdi (The Originator, Initiatot), Ya Raqib 7x (The Watchful), Ya Jalil 21x (The Majestic)
We can only try...
Next Time...
Today I'm quite excited because I planned to do some groceries shopping. Who gets excited to do that huh? I planned to walk around for a while before I do the actual shopping since dah lama memerap di rumah. I get exhausted walking up the stairs to our master bedroom... sungguh takder stamina. So I figured walking can be a good exercise (or excuse) to go shopping :) Giant pun, Giant lah. Before that I browse for strap on binder or bengkung moden because I'm not really satisfied with my current bengkung that bunched up at the waist. Cantik jer nampak gambar2 bengkung lain looks very firm from below the breast right up to hips.
Bukan apa... I have been having problems with previous pregnancies kan and one of the possibility mentioned by doctor, rahim lemah. So kenalah jaga betul2 untuk kesihatan sendiri and future possibilities. After shower and putting on lotion halia, use my bengkung and I wear corsets that I bought for my wedding day last time. It will keep the top part of the bengkung firm and also hide unsightly bulges aka spare tyre area perut tu. Plannyer ke Giant nanti, nak survey bengkung Cosway and yang dijual di Guardian kalau2 sesuai dan cukup panjang for me (cover below breast right up to hips). Verdict after wearing the corset, hmmmm.... I need to do something with the spare tyre.
Then I get a phone call from IKA service technician. I reported a broken bulb on my cooker hob during gas problem few days ago. They will be coming to fix the lights. So I have to wait for them... tergendala sebentar plan nak ke Giant. While waiting, browse on bengkung till I found 1 blog with a really sad story. They lost their baby during delivery due to broken uterus. Rahim pecah! Bukan main2. Bila rahim pecah, baby tiada lagi tempat khas untuknya dan dia bergerak2 dalam perut dan boleh membahayakan kedua2 nyawa. Bayangkan baby bergerak hingga ke rusuk. The doctor tried to save the baby but she didn't make it and then tried to save the mom. Alhamdulillah mom can be saved after a long time in the operation theatre since she still has another young son to take care of. Tak baca semua entri dalam blog ni. Tak sanggup rasanya.
Will there be a next time for me? If I get pregnant, I will need help with the hormone in the first few weeks, and then the doctor suggested ikat rahim within week 14-16 to avoid baby from prematurely leaving my body as the uterus might not be capable of holding the baby weight. These are all predictions. There is no guarantee. Hubby always said, whatever happened is due to His will. I know that... I can't help but think of ways and effort that can be taken to prevent mishaps from happening again. We are also encouraged to find ways and pray to Allah to get what we want. So many ifs to think about... Sigh! No point thinking about all that now. I must get healthy and recover soon.
Dah takder mood nak groceries shopping. Lagi pun almost lunch time. I might as well take my lunch before badan masuk angin and then tengok masih ada mood atau tidak untuk berjalan2 petang2 sikit.
Bukan apa... I have been having problems with previous pregnancies kan and one of the possibility mentioned by doctor, rahim lemah. So kenalah jaga betul2 untuk kesihatan sendiri and future possibilities. After shower and putting on lotion halia, use my bengkung and I wear corsets that I bought for my wedding day last time. It will keep the top part of the bengkung firm and also hide unsightly bulges aka spare tyre area perut tu. Plannyer ke Giant nanti, nak survey bengkung Cosway and yang dijual di Guardian kalau2 sesuai dan cukup panjang for me (cover below breast right up to hips). Verdict after wearing the corset, hmmmm.... I need to do something with the spare tyre.
Then I get a phone call from IKA service technician. I reported a broken bulb on my cooker hob during gas problem few days ago. They will be coming to fix the lights. So I have to wait for them... tergendala sebentar plan nak ke Giant. While waiting, browse on bengkung till I found 1 blog with a really sad story. They lost their baby during delivery due to broken uterus. Rahim pecah! Bukan main2. Bila rahim pecah, baby tiada lagi tempat khas untuknya dan dia bergerak2 dalam perut dan boleh membahayakan kedua2 nyawa. Bayangkan baby bergerak hingga ke rusuk. The doctor tried to save the baby but she didn't make it and then tried to save the mom. Alhamdulillah mom can be saved after a long time in the operation theatre since she still has another young son to take care of. Tak baca semua entri dalam blog ni. Tak sanggup rasanya.
Will there be a next time for me? If I get pregnant, I will need help with the hormone in the first few weeks, and then the doctor suggested ikat rahim within week 14-16 to avoid baby from prematurely leaving my body as the uterus might not be capable of holding the baby weight. These are all predictions. There is no guarantee. Hubby always said, whatever happened is due to His will. I know that... I can't help but think of ways and effort that can be taken to prevent mishaps from happening again. We are also encouraged to find ways and pray to Allah to get what we want. So many ifs to think about... Sigh! No point thinking about all that now. I must get healthy and recover soon.
Dah takder mood nak groceries shopping. Lagi pun almost lunch time. I might as well take my lunch before badan masuk angin and then tengok masih ada mood atau tidak untuk berjalan2 petang2 sikit.
Friday, February 24, 2012
Road to Recovery
It has been 26 days I'm in confinement now. I'm happy to say I'm recovering Alhamdulillah. Emotionally, there were still time when I felt down. Kadang2, ada kata2 atau situasi yang buat hati terasa sedih. Hubby said, things happen for a reason and ada hikmahnya. Bila tiba2 datang sedih, susah juga nak membayangkan hikmahnya ketika itu. Anyway, like I said before... I would accept this loss just the same way I accepted hubby in my life, as destined by Him. However, I have 'wants' now. I wanted to eat something, I wanted to go out, I wanted to go shopping... I believe that is a sign that I'm recovering well. I'm not sure what's going on inside the body though. I hope it's recovering too. No more milk factory pain or sharp pain at uterus area. 18 days to go before end of confinement and I'm still wearing socks, wear sweater when it's cold, rub oil or lotion on my body and bertungku. Otherwise, I do feel the chills sometimes.
During early pregnancy, we went to Pangkor and Medan. I didn't even blog anything about those trips. I only managed to sort Pangkor photo and upload to my FB. The reason being, whenever I looked at the photos from our trip, the memory of being nauseous and dizzy feels very clear to me. Otherwise, I would be the first to compile family photos and can't wait to publish them using Photobook. Even the t-shirts and blouses I wore during those trips, I have hesitations of wearing them. They kinda remind me of the time I was nauseous and dizzy. Weird... some would say that it is just psychology. I have forced myself to wear the t-shirts and blouses... managed to wear some. Probably have to wait awhile longer to wear all... not very suitable for confinement uses. I still haven't look at the photos. I probably would one of these days.
As for food, I still remember masak lemak telur rebus I ate in one of the nasi padang restaurant. I threw up all of it later. Sigh! Probably, would take some time before I can eat another masak lemak telur rebus, and nasi padang for that matter. Padahal masa tu, dalam banyak2 menu, itu lah yang rasa macam boleh terbuka selera. As for chicken, dulu tak nak tengok langsung... now, ada juga terliur tengok gambar. Tapi masih belum cuba makan. Since I'm still under confinement, let it be for now. This weekend, I'll be driving to class insyaAllah. Depending on my mood, if I'm bored at home, probably tomorrow I'll drive to Giant for some groceries. It is not urgent since we have some stock from previous grocery shopping with hubby. Just to get some air and de-stress :)
During early pregnancy, we went to Pangkor and Medan. I didn't even blog anything about those trips. I only managed to sort Pangkor photo and upload to my FB. The reason being, whenever I looked at the photos from our trip, the memory of being nauseous and dizzy feels very clear to me. Otherwise, I would be the first to compile family photos and can't wait to publish them using Photobook. Even the t-shirts and blouses I wore during those trips, I have hesitations of wearing them. They kinda remind me of the time I was nauseous and dizzy. Weird... some would say that it is just psychology. I have forced myself to wear the t-shirts and blouses... managed to wear some. Probably have to wait awhile longer to wear all... not very suitable for confinement uses. I still haven't look at the photos. I probably would one of these days.
As for food, I still remember masak lemak telur rebus I ate in one of the nasi padang restaurant. I threw up all of it later. Sigh! Probably, would take some time before I can eat another masak lemak telur rebus, and nasi padang for that matter. Padahal masa tu, dalam banyak2 menu, itu lah yang rasa macam boleh terbuka selera. As for chicken, dulu tak nak tengok langsung... now, ada juga terliur tengok gambar. Tapi masih belum cuba makan. Since I'm still under confinement, let it be for now. This weekend, I'll be driving to class insyaAllah. Depending on my mood, if I'm bored at home, probably tomorrow I'll drive to Giant for some groceries. It is not urgent since we have some stock from previous grocery shopping with hubby. Just to get some air and de-stress :)
Kain Batik
I don't normally wear kain batik. The few kain batik I have is used to cover pillow when I'm traveling no matter how many star the hotel is, used when ironing clothes if necessary, and other creative uses... but not worn.
However, it has proven to be very useful during confinement. Not only that, I just realize how beautiful a batik sarong can be. I'm referring to the common sarong that aunties and grandmas and the kampong folks wore... not the silk batik designers do. If you want something purely local, this is the real deal. Beautiful colors, pretty design and extremely versatile and useful.
I'll extend my batik sarong collection from now on and I'm gonna collect all beautiful colors. It seems all the batik sarong I've bought, is red. All the other colors I have is either hand-me downs from mom and gifts from others. Other than red, I like green too. No green batik sarong in current collection. Not sure if I'll wear them after confinement but I'd like to keep more in my wardrobe nonetheless.
However, it has proven to be very useful during confinement. Not only that, I just realize how beautiful a batik sarong can be. I'm referring to the common sarong that aunties and grandmas and the kampong folks wore... not the silk batik designers do. If you want something purely local, this is the real deal. Beautiful colors, pretty design and extremely versatile and useful.
I'll extend my batik sarong collection from now on and I'm gonna collect all beautiful colors. It seems all the batik sarong I've bought, is red. All the other colors I have is either hand-me downs from mom and gifts from others. Other than red, I like green too. No green batik sarong in current collection. Not sure if I'll wear them after confinement but I'd like to keep more in my wardrobe nonetheless.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Frangipani... and other thoughts...
Yesterday, we bought a frangipani tree to plant near the spot where baby is buried. May it blossom and forever remind us of our little one, Baby Aina. The name we have reserved for quite some time for our baby. My thoughts is always with you dear baby.
Harapan hati dalam bayangan,
Hanya doa iringan kami;
Pohon kemboja sebagai kenangan,
Tanda ingatan ayah dan ummi.
Post-partum bleeding has stopped after 3 weeks. Earlier in the morning, I called another masseuse that I got her number from the internet, for a massage and tungku session at home. My body really feels achy all over since our Changlun trip. The massage was painful, as expected... I can still feel swollen parts all over my body. I cringed even when hubby just rubs ginger lotion on me just now.
Also yesterday, our stove didn't work. I thought I need new gas. But something is still wrong somewhere. Today I called the shop where we bought the cooker hood and stove, they suggested we checked the gas head, then wash the ring and finally scrub the safety pin with cloth. We did, to no avail. We called them again and they came warning us they will charge if it is not due to the stove problem, use sand paper on the safety pin and charge us $60. Hmmpphhh... cekik darah betul.
We already changed our water heater in the master bathroom twice.The last time, the technician mentioned that it didn't work due to low water pressure. Today I Googled about water heater and low water pressure. It seems we need to do something about the water pressure as there is a number of forum where water pressure is the problem. Won't help changing the water heater. Called our renovation contractor and they came without much hassle to have a look. That is what I called service.
Emosi agak terganggu harini. Stress ke? Geram kena bayar $60 ke? Sampai keluar air mata. Hubby gelakkan pulak. Memang sendiri pun tak faham and tak expect sampai keluar air mata. Entah lah... rasa emosi penat. Mungkin dah boring tahap gaban duduk di rumah. Stress semalam dapat call to complete our practical report by March? Seriously I don't know. Hubby suggested we go jogging in the evening. The image of me jogging with socks, tak pelik but berkain batik... that kinda make us laugh.
My tolerance level to pain and emotional situation is quite high. However, there will always be a turning point. The littlest, unimportant, insignificant event could be the trigger that push me to the edge. Nak berhuha-huha pun, energy masih belum recover. Stamina tak cukup since dah berapa bulan kerja nya taking things easy due to so many reason. Another 3 weeks of confinement to go. Anyway, petang tadi dah sleep it off. Hopefully, no more emotional outburst. Terasa petang tadi sejuk sangat, pakai sweater and merengkut atas katil. Tau2 hubby kejutkan dah nak maghrib. Now hubby is watching TV. Masih belum begitu berminat nak menonton apa2 cerita so lepas di sapu losyen halia tadi, bertungku. Sekarang pun masih bertuam sebab tungku elektrik ni lama panasnya. Mungkin bila cerita habis nanti, nak ajak hubby ambil angin di luar sekejap. And take a look at our newly planted frangipani tree.
Harapan hati dalam bayangan,
Hanya doa iringan kami;
Pohon kemboja sebagai kenangan,
Tanda ingatan ayah dan ummi.
Post-partum bleeding has stopped after 3 weeks. Earlier in the morning, I called another masseuse that I got her number from the internet, for a massage and tungku session at home. My body really feels achy all over since our Changlun trip. The massage was painful, as expected... I can still feel swollen parts all over my body. I cringed even when hubby just rubs ginger lotion on me just now.
Also yesterday, our stove didn't work. I thought I need new gas. But something is still wrong somewhere. Today I called the shop where we bought the cooker hood and stove, they suggested we checked the gas head, then wash the ring and finally scrub the safety pin with cloth. We did, to no avail. We called them again and they came warning us they will charge if it is not due to the stove problem, use sand paper on the safety pin and charge us $60. Hmmpphhh... cekik darah betul.
We already changed our water heater in the master bathroom twice.The last time, the technician mentioned that it didn't work due to low water pressure. Today I Googled about water heater and low water pressure. It seems we need to do something about the water pressure as there is a number of forum where water pressure is the problem. Won't help changing the water heater. Called our renovation contractor and they came without much hassle to have a look. That is what I called service.
Emosi agak terganggu harini. Stress ke? Geram kena bayar $60 ke? Sampai keluar air mata. Hubby gelakkan pulak. Memang sendiri pun tak faham and tak expect sampai keluar air mata. Entah lah... rasa emosi penat. Mungkin dah boring tahap gaban duduk di rumah. Stress semalam dapat call to complete our practical report by March? Seriously I don't know. Hubby suggested we go jogging in the evening. The image of me jogging with socks, tak pelik but berkain batik... that kinda make us laugh.
My tolerance level to pain and emotional situation is quite high. However, there will always be a turning point. The littlest, unimportant, insignificant event could be the trigger that push me to the edge. Nak berhuha-huha pun, energy masih belum recover. Stamina tak cukup since dah berapa bulan kerja nya taking things easy due to so many reason. Another 3 weeks of confinement to go. Anyway, petang tadi dah sleep it off. Hopefully, no more emotional outburst. Terasa petang tadi sejuk sangat, pakai sweater and merengkut atas katil. Tau2 hubby kejutkan dah nak maghrib. Now hubby is watching TV. Masih belum begitu berminat nak menonton apa2 cerita so lepas di sapu losyen halia tadi, bertungku. Sekarang pun masih bertuam sebab tungku elektrik ni lama panasnya. Mungkin bila cerita habis nanti, nak ajak hubby ambil angin di luar sekejap. And take a look at our newly planted frangipani tree.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Confinement in Changloon
Last week I went to Alor Setar with hubby. My offline entry below.
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Wednesday
Yesterday we reached Changloon around 7 pm, after 5 hours drive from our place. Hubby has a meeting today. I don't have a heart to let him drive alone since he has not fully recovered from cough & flu. I can't help him drive but at least I can accompany him along the way. My head was throbbing yesterday coz I've been sneezing since morning. Despite that, and feeling so uncomfortable wearing bengkung for the long journey, I survived. And hubby didn't feel overly sleepy like he normally did whenever he got behind a wheel.
Hubby's meeting is in the afternoon today. Initially he's not rushing to return to KL, suggesting that we could stay another night here. But then, he has to do something in KL tomorrow so I decided to follow him and wait in the car. For 2:30 pm meeting, latest they could finish is 4:30. I guess I can survive 2 hours waiting in the car. My initial plan to find some magazine didn't materialize as I didn't see any shop where it is convenient to stop and search. I brought my laptop to do my school work but I didn't even touch it. Confinement rituals do take quite some time to perform.
My thoughts on confinement on the road or while traveling...
- There is a hot shower in the hotel so there is no problem to shower.
- Kettle is provided so I can boil water and tungku using hot water bottle.
- Param and pilis, ganti dengan losyen sirih.
- Pakai bengkung, no problem. Eventhough it won't feel very comfortable on long journey.
- I even bought new socks in plain color so it will not look very weird.
- Sweater memang bawa cuma tak dipakai all the time. Time lunch tadi, tersangat panas. Kurang waras rasanya kalau bersweater. Duduk dalam kereta bawah pokok, pasang aircon ni, pakai ler.
- Pil2 dah dibawa dalam Pil Box.
- Herbal tea ada dalam thermos.
- Makan pun tak susah sangat. After 2 weeks, dah mula ambil makanan bergoreng atau tumis. Sikit2 lah. So lunch, nasi + ikan kerisi goreng + sawi + kuah asam pedas sikit.
Kalau orang dulu2 berpantang, keluar rumah pun tidak. Cuma boleh bawa baby checkup jer. I know but people have to make exceptions now due to some necessity. I do feel tired since my body has not fully recovered. So is hubby. He gets headache from coughing too much. Plus flu, his head must feel heavy. Dapat tolong sapukan minyak and urut2 sikit while he's driving, at least I can offer some comfort. As for me, I do get frequent headaches now too. Dah cuba untuk tak biarkan perut kosong tapi masih tangkap di urat tengkuk.
Right now I'm feeling very sleepy, in the car parked under nice shady branches. And it is getting cloudy now too. Sangat sesuai untuk melelapkan mata. Sebelum terlena diulik intan, cepat2 write about my experience offline. Not that I can't go online now but using smartphone sometimes you have to conserve battery on a long journey like this. Blogging is not really urgent so offline it is. Terlupa pulak nak bawa battery charger. Nak lelapkan mata sekejap. Harap sakit kepala tak melarat.
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After hubby's meeting, he asked whether I wanted to go to Bukit Kayu Hitam. It's only 7km. I figured why not! Only for a short while. There is nothing much there. We have never been to Bukit Kayu Hitam. This is definitely not a necessity trip hehehe... If it is any consolation, we didn't buy much. Just some souvenirs for family members (one each) and a pair of house slipper for me. Very suitable for lady in confinement. Then we headed home. We stopped at Petronas to buy some bread and then have dinner at G.Semanggol rest area for dinner. After G.Semanggol I started to feel achy all over and felt very miserable. Kalau dapat lurus pinggang memang nikmat. Memang rasa tersangat tak tahan macam nak menangis. Badan sendiri sakit, tapi masih picit2 kan orang sebelah sebab tak dapat nak picit badan sendiri. At least driver OK.
Hubby stopped at Tapah for prayer. By this time, dah rasa nak pitam. Take off my bengkung and waited for hubby to return, minta tolong sapukan minyak on my back. Wrap myself up and shut my eyes sebab rasa dunia berpusing bila buka mata. I probably dozed off for a while. Before that, sempat terfikir pengsan pun OK sebab tersangat tak larat. At least sedar2 dah sampai rumah. Terasa hubby drive macam terbang jer but he reached home around the ETA so it must be within the speed limit. It was raining too that day. After this experience, sememangnya tobat tak nak buat dah confinement on the road. Journey to MIL's place OK lah as it took around 2 hours only.
NOte to self:- Tobat jangan buat lagi OK.
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Wednesday
Yesterday we reached Changloon around 7 pm, after 5 hours drive from our place. Hubby has a meeting today. I don't have a heart to let him drive alone since he has not fully recovered from cough & flu. I can't help him drive but at least I can accompany him along the way. My head was throbbing yesterday coz I've been sneezing since morning. Despite that, and feeling so uncomfortable wearing bengkung for the long journey, I survived. And hubby didn't feel overly sleepy like he normally did whenever he got behind a wheel.
Hubby's meeting is in the afternoon today. Initially he's not rushing to return to KL, suggesting that we could stay another night here. But then, he has to do something in KL tomorrow so I decided to follow him and wait in the car. For 2:30 pm meeting, latest they could finish is 4:30. I guess I can survive 2 hours waiting in the car. My initial plan to find some magazine didn't materialize as I didn't see any shop where it is convenient to stop and search. I brought my laptop to do my school work but I didn't even touch it. Confinement rituals do take quite some time to perform.
My thoughts on confinement on the road or while traveling...
- There is a hot shower in the hotel so there is no problem to shower.
- Kettle is provided so I can boil water and tungku using hot water bottle.
- Param and pilis, ganti dengan losyen sirih.
- Pakai bengkung, no problem. Eventhough it won't feel very comfortable on long journey.
- I even bought new socks in plain color so it will not look very weird.
- Sweater memang bawa cuma tak dipakai all the time. Time lunch tadi, tersangat panas. Kurang waras rasanya kalau bersweater. Duduk dalam kereta bawah pokok, pasang aircon ni, pakai ler.
- Pil2 dah dibawa dalam Pil Box.
- Herbal tea ada dalam thermos.
- Makan pun tak susah sangat. After 2 weeks, dah mula ambil makanan bergoreng atau tumis. Sikit2 lah. So lunch, nasi + ikan kerisi goreng + sawi + kuah asam pedas sikit.
Kalau orang dulu2 berpantang, keluar rumah pun tidak. Cuma boleh bawa baby checkup jer. I know but people have to make exceptions now due to some necessity. I do feel tired since my body has not fully recovered. So is hubby. He gets headache from coughing too much. Plus flu, his head must feel heavy. Dapat tolong sapukan minyak and urut2 sikit while he's driving, at least I can offer some comfort. As for me, I do get frequent headaches now too. Dah cuba untuk tak biarkan perut kosong tapi masih tangkap di urat tengkuk.
Right now I'm feeling very sleepy, in the car parked under nice shady branches. And it is getting cloudy now too. Sangat sesuai untuk melelapkan mata. Sebelum terlena diulik intan, cepat2 write about my experience offline. Not that I can't go online now but using smartphone sometimes you have to conserve battery on a long journey like this. Blogging is not really urgent so offline it is. Terlupa pulak nak bawa battery charger. Nak lelapkan mata sekejap. Harap sakit kepala tak melarat.
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After hubby's meeting, he asked whether I wanted to go to Bukit Kayu Hitam. It's only 7km. I figured why not! Only for a short while. There is nothing much there. We have never been to Bukit Kayu Hitam. This is definitely not a necessity trip hehehe... If it is any consolation, we didn't buy much. Just some souvenirs for family members (one each) and a pair of house slipper for me. Very suitable for lady in confinement. Then we headed home. We stopped at Petronas to buy some bread and then have dinner at G.Semanggol rest area for dinner. After G.Semanggol I started to feel achy all over and felt very miserable. Kalau dapat lurus pinggang memang nikmat. Memang rasa tersangat tak tahan macam nak menangis. Badan sendiri sakit, tapi masih picit2 kan orang sebelah sebab tak dapat nak picit badan sendiri. At least driver OK.
Hubby stopped at Tapah for prayer. By this time, dah rasa nak pitam. Take off my bengkung and waited for hubby to return, minta tolong sapukan minyak on my back. Wrap myself up and shut my eyes sebab rasa dunia berpusing bila buka mata. I probably dozed off for a while. Before that, sempat terfikir pengsan pun OK sebab tersangat tak larat. At least sedar2 dah sampai rumah. Terasa hubby drive macam terbang jer but he reached home around the ETA so it must be within the speed limit. It was raining too that day. After this experience, sememangnya tobat tak nak buat dah confinement on the road. Journey to MIL's place OK lah as it took around 2 hours only.
NOte to self:- Tobat jangan buat lagi OK.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
My Confinement Story
Assalamualaikum baby... everytime I saw the spot where baby is buried, I gave her salam. Wherever baby is right now, ummi is thinking of you. Alhamdulillah for the time baby temankan ummi and ayah.
I'll be writing about my confinement because this time is definitely different than all the last time I went through it. Last time, I had air kunyit, 3 days massages and tungku, took care of what I eat for like 2-3 weeks and not be with hubby for the whole confinement duration. At the very least, till my next menses. I just wear bedroom slippers instead of socks, didn't really wrap myself up and use Avon bengkung with strap. It is really small and not really appropriate for confinement practice. It served its purpose last time though.
DAY 1
This time,I have to be more diligent with my confinement rituals. I have baby stuck in me for like half day, tak nak tinggalkan ummi... catheterized twice because the passage is blocked for me to urinate normally, poked and poked and poked at till I felt swollen just above my pubic bone. I can feel a lump and it was very tender to touch. When I asked the doctor and nurses, they said its my uterus. Huh! After the event, it was very painful to urinate the first few times.
DAY 2
The day we returned home, I make arrangement to have a masseuse came over for the next three days and that night we went out to buy myself a proper bengkung. Hubby went out to bought it. In the internet, we can get it for $38. At the shop, it was retailed at $49. After haggling, dapat ler $2 diskaun. Different brand of course. Who cares about the brand as long as it does its work. Dah nak cepat, beli ajer lah. I waited in the car, wrapped up in sweaters and socks. Hubby also tapau ginger beef for my dinner and fried rice for himself.
In the beginning, it was quite difficult getting used to wearing socks. I kick my socks off just before I went to bed.
DAY 3
The next morning, I boiled the herbal bag for my bath, bought during last confinement and I still have 2 bags which can be boiled for several times. During the massage, I felt like running away. My whole body feels tender. Nak cepat baik punya pasal, tahan kan jugak. After the massage, bengkung time. I do feel much better afterwards. It was quite difficult using the bengkung initially. I wore the bengkung immediately after massage. Not long after that, I have to go to the bathroom. So off with the bengkung and tried to wear it again. Sigh! It was like that for few times.
For lunch, I cook sambal telur for hubby and use the microwave to zap the anchovies dry like crackers, mixed with thinly sliced ginger and black pepper for myself. I read somewhere in the internet we can use microwave to fry anchovies. Last time I used frying pan, without oil. It took forever and didn't really dry like crackers. When I use non-stick pan, the anchovies kinda make marks on the pan. It still takes some time with the microwave but definitely easier than using pan. When I was pregnant, I didn't stock up the kitchen. I was too dizzy and nauseous to cook anything. Kunyit pun dah kecut. Halia jer yg nampak masih elok. So buat air halia. Badan memang rasa ada angin.
That night, it was the most difficult night for both of us. I tried to console hubby. We were both sad, but we only have each other now. Whenever the doctor happily suggest, "oh for your next pregnancy, we can do this and that", they forget the emotional part that we have to go through. It wasn't easy facing such lost.
DAY 4
The next morning, the same ritual of herbal bath, tungku and massage. The massage wasn't as bad like yesterday. This time, I went to the bathroom first, before wearing the bengkung. Not that it helped very much. Kencing tak lawas, kejap2 rasa macam nak pergi bilik air. Then, rasa nak buang air besar pun sama. Dah 3rd day, nothing. So in the end tak pakai bengkung sebab kejap2 nak ke tandas, without much success. After the massage, I can't keep still. All this while, dapur dan fridge tak berkemas sebab tak larat. Dah tak pening2 ni, mula lah godek sana, godek sini. In the end rasa sakit badan. This time, hubby is away at work whole day, followed by badminton. Let him whacked his frustration out at the court. He probably did. Balik malam mengadu sakit bahu.
There's nothing at home. Not even anchovies stock. I called the shop to send in gas since our spare has been used, and asked them to send anchovies and milo. They don't have fresh ginger and turmeric. At least, I can have anchovies again for lunch. For dinner, buat kuah sikit with tarmarind juice, onion and ginger. Hubby tak pandai makan lauk kering. I suggested he tapau nasi ayam kukus or whatever for dinner, he didn't mind eating at home. After dinner, I asked him to go to the market. I felt sharp pain at uterus area, not to mention perkara2 yang tak lawas tu. I need my air kunyit and whatever jamu. Last time, I used NR herbal tea. I still have about 3 packets in stock tapi dah expired. So off we went to the market, beli ikan selar, sawi, pegaga, kunyit, halia, orange and hubby nak watermelon. Then off to giant, ada kedai jamu. Beli tablet haruan and NR Phytonatal. Herbal tea tu nnt sah tak minum selalu so better take the NR tablet. Beli di kedai memang mahal. Internet price for the NR tablet, $100. Di kedai $140. I didn't masked my surprise. After 10% discount, dapat ler $126. Again, nak cepat, beli jer. Kalau pregnant full term, sempat ler nak order semua tu through internet.
Sampai rumah, rasa mencucuk makin kuat. Mintak hubby temankan, tapi orang dah kepenatan main badminton, terus tidor. Tuam guna hot water bottle. Tukar air panas 2-3 kali sampai tertidor.
DAY 5
Blood clot... quite big. Patut ler sakit sangat semalam. Yang tak lawas tu, dah OK lepas makan jamu semalam. Again herbal bath, tungku and massage lama sikit harini sebab last day and finally bengkung. Perut masih rasa tak selesa sangat. Tengahari sikit buka bengkung. Today hubby's staff and my friend is coming for a visit so kemas2 rumah sikit walaupun they already mentioned not to bother too much. Ordered pizza for them. Sambil tu, pack barang2 to go MIL's place. They send fruit basket before orangnya sampai. Initially, hubby's meeting after Friday prayer but postponed to 4 p.m. Lambat ler balik with Friday traffic and all. I just had my dinner when hubby returned. Kemas2 rumah, tutup suis apa yang patut, off we go after Maghrib. Pakai bengkung,stokin and sweater. I didn't use param and pilis. Memang kerap sakit kepala, pakai losyen herba sirih yang memang ada dalam simpanan.
At MIL's place, semua bertanya khabar. Ada new baby. So orang berpantang and new baby sleep with MIL. Hubby will be going to Tioman early next day.
DAY 6
Harini mandi air panas jer. Berbengkung and stokin tapi masih tak selesa sangat dengan bengkung tu. Perut pun masih tak selesa. Barang2 yang beli di pasar, bawak ke rumah MIL. Air kunyit dah buat semalam, minum sekali and lebih nya masuk dalam botol. I used the dry blender so memang dapat pati kunyit, bukan air kunyit. Pagi dah minum air kunyit, and MIL bagi telur ayam kampung, makan dengan madu. Suka betul bila dapat makan benda2 yang boleh buat cepat baik. For lunch, masak sendiri ikan selar masak pindang and sawi rebus. Perut tak selesa, kejap2 ke bilik air walaupun takder apa2. Nasib baik mak ngah tolong. In the end, dalam proses memasak and makan, 3x ke bilik air, membuang... air jer yang keluarnya. SIL kata angin tu so cepat2 sapu minyak satu badan and pakai sweater. Took a nap, petang tu OK sikit.
Malam tu MIL asked if I'm cold sebab duduk merengkut semacam. I told her sakit perut. So she whipped out her electric tungku for me to use. After dinner, memang few times panaskan tungku tu and tuam perut.
DAY 7
MIL buat mee kari, ada kerang siap dengan blender kulit udang lagi. I already took my breakfast of bread and nestum. Then MIL ajak makan. Katanya mana nak ada tenaga kalau tak makan. Huh! Makan ler sikit. Takut2 nak makan sebenarnya sebab takut sakit. Ada rasa mencucuk sikit lepas tu tapi tak ler berpanjangan. So in the end buat conclusion takder apa2 pun cuma rasa takut jer nak makan. For lunch, nasib baik ada ikan bilis dengan halia and lada hitam tu, makan nasi dengan pegaga. Cukup ler tu Alhamdulillah. For dinner pun sama, dapat nasi panas2, heaven. MIL tanya OK ker makan camtu? Dia tak reti nak ulam pegaga gitu. OK jer mak... dah lama mabuk pening, dapat makan tanpa rasa nak terkeluar balik ni memang syukur nikmat.
DAY 8
Harini tapau jer breakfast untuk semua orang. As for me, ada roti cukup. Today my classmate came in the afternoon. Buatkan air epal and MIL goreng keropok. Banyak dapat buah, epal hijau memang tak laku kalau tak buat air. Hubby returned later in the day. Dah petang baru sampai. Masih sakit bahu and planned to go for berubat with MIL that night. Tapi tunggu lama sangat, kensel. Sampai rumah dah about 11.
DAY 9
Makan roti lagi, makan juga cekodok BIL buat. Bukan senang nak rasa BIL buat cekodok :) MIL masak awal harini. Nak cuba gi berubat bahu lagi sekali. Masak lada, memang sesuai untuk orang berpantang, tapi ikan pari kat mana2 pun tulis tak elok di makan untuk orang berpantang. Dah makan dah, baru tengok internet. Alhamdulillah takder apa2 pun. Menunggu hubby and MIL balik, buatkan air mangga and epal hijau lagi. Masa tuangkan air mangga untuk hubby ada rasa sikit sebab mangga tu tak laku sebab masam. Sajer nak rasa cukup manis tak. Kalau tak masam, tak payah buat air dah habis. Hubby dah sakit kepala lepas makan sebab menunggu berurut, makan dah lambat. Malam tu perut rasa tak selesa mencucuk. Sebab air mangga or ikan pari? We returned to KL that night. Hubby mengantuk sangat, tapi tak dapat nak bantu drive. Urged him to stop twice and take a nap.
DAY 10
Mandi air herba and berbengkung. Harini banyak rehat and nap. Letih past few days tolong jaga baby, tak tidur sangat. For lunch, panaskan masak lada MIL bekalkan. Rebus sawi untuk tambah sayur. I can eat turmeric raw. But when it comes to garlic, ewww... Garlic yang dah garing dalam microwave OK but garlic yg dalam sayur tu, kunyah2 sayur dengan nasi, bila rasa2 dah ready nak telan makanan, masukkan garlic and telan. Normally I'll just whacked the garlic and throw it away after eating the vege. Nak cepat baik, semua tu kena makan kan. So berusaha juga lah. Hubby returned from work, not feeling well. Gave him panadol and put cool towel on his forehead.
DAY 11
Mandi air panas jer. By this time, dah rasa comfortable berbengkung. Kalau nak ke bilik air, longggarkan sikit ikatan and after that senang ketatkan semula. Cuma perut masih rasa tak comfortable part nak membuang air besar tu. Bila makan NR tablet 1, mcm takder effect. Bila makan dua, kejap2 rasa nak ke bilik air tapi tak selalu berjaya pun. In the end, stick to taking 1. Today buat ikan selar masak pindang sekor, goreng 2 ekor, and buat air asam sikit. Air asam tak cukup bahan. For lunch, hubby makan sikit jer. Tak sedap air asam tu. For dinner, suapkan orang demam nasi dengan ikan goreng buh kicap. Lalu pulak orang demam makan. As for me, masak pindang tu lah.
DAY 12
Mandi air panas jugak. Harini orang demam kena ke office, tapi sebelum tu breakfast roti canai and pergi klinik dulu. Rushing balik rumah, bagi makan ubat and hubby off to office for 10 am appointment. 11 lebih dear hubby balik rumah, kepala dah weng katanya. Mungkin ubat selsema sebab belum bagi ubat batuk. Gave him the cough syrup and let him sleep. By this time, tak larat dah rasa nak makan ikan selar and sawi. So panas kan ikan goreng for hubby and ikan bilis jer lah for me. Risau juga dengan demam and batuk hubby yang tak surut2. Hubby woke up for lunch, suapkan nasi dengan ikan goreng and kicap lagi. Kesian... memang takder benda lain di rumah. Biskut dan roti pun dah habis. Pegaga pun dah habis daunnya, tinggal batang dan akar jer. Petang tu ajak hubby ke giant, he waited in the car. Lepas ni he has to be off to MLK family pulak. So pakai sweater, tak pakai stokin, jalan mcm orang bukan dalam pantang beli barang2 yang dah ada dalam senarai. Alhamdulillah kebanyakannya ada. For dinner, alter kan air asam yang tak sedap tu... fuhhh berasap makan tp makan sikit jer sebab tak berani makan pedas2 sgt.
DAY 13
Harini amik angin siram pokok pagi dan petang. Hubby risau betul pokok dah berapa hari tak siram. Tak lah berat sangat kerja tu kan. Bukak paip and pegang getah air jer. Tugasan cuci baju pun banyak dah selesai. Today, towel2 yang dah lama ada dalam laundry basket tapi tak tercuci sebab larat cuci baju2 penting jer, dah berangkat pun. Kain baju pun semua dah lipat cuma belum larat nak angkut and simpan di wardrobe atas. Last sekali yang outstanding in the laundry basket, cadar 2 sets and my tudung sebab tudung2 tu bukan boleh cuci macam biasa. Habis ler awning dia. Part menyapu jer yg lemah sikit bila akan bermain dengan habuk ni. My indon helper dulu pun dah tak nak datang since pindah rumah ni sebab jauh sangat katanya. For now, tutup mata jer dulu. Anyway, menu harini daging masak lada hitam with lots of halia and sawi pak choy.
Yang pelik harini, milk factory memang gatal dari time pregnant haritu. Bila menggaru memang tak ingat dunia. Harini keluar air... erkkk...
Cuba nak buat kerja sekolah harini. Minggu ni akan ponteng kelas coz too soon for me to sit for hours in aircond room and also drive. Next week, akan tumpang my friend. Kenapa yer tak boleh drive? Ni bukan pantang larang orang tua jer. My gynae dulu pun tak bagi. Urat rahim ada di ibu jari kaki katanya. Driving movement tu walaupun nampak tak seberapa, tak berapa sesuai for healing uterus. Apa2 hal, takut bentan. So better ikut dari mudarat.
Bila nak buat kerja sekolah, banyak pulak idea nak browse. Browse cerita pasal confinement experience orang, bila cerita part deliver tu, memang lah meleleh air mata. I go through it too... cuma tak cukup sempurna. Baru ler faham senario berpantang sebetulnya. Sebelum ni, buat sikit2 jer. It is the routine tu yang tak ramai nak buat i.e. mandi, tungku, all the necessary rempah ratus, param, pilis and bengkung for the whole confinement duration. Sanggup? So berazam akan buat betul2 after this. Sebelum ni memang masa berurut tukang urut ada tanya bengkung tak? Tungku tak? Mungkin sebab keadaan perut dan rahim yang tak berapa OK.
Bila pakai bengkung avon tu sekarang, rasa mcm takder apa jer. Mcm pakai girdle yang tak berapa ketat. Mungkin sebab dah lama elasticity dah kurang tp dulu ok jer. Mungkin juga dah biasa pakai bengkung ketat, setakat sikit mcm tu tak rasa apa.
Rasanya pakai bengkung panjang tu much better as dia ikut badan. Coz bengkung ni, badan pun belum kembang lagi, pregnant haritu losing weight sebab muntah jer, so the top part tak boleh nak ketatkan lagi. In the end, it will scrunch up at the waist. Part yang lain tu ok lah. Bahagian yang bengkak dekat pubic bone tu, sajer tarik ikatan tu kuat2. Now tak rasa bengkak tu lagi. Untuk orang yang dah biasa mengurut, tak tau ler boleh rasa bengkak atau tidak. Anyway, dah hujung2 confinement period nnt, akan berurut lagi. Nak amik full package - sauna, tungku, massage, tangas. Kalau rajin, lulur and mandi sekali. Selalu tak suka lama2 sgt. Penat ler nak tunggu semua tu habis. Now masih ada darah nifas, lama pulak this time. Dulu few days to one week. Pregnancy duration pun lebih lama this time. Petang dan malam, tungku dengan hot water bottle. Pakai losyen sirih before putting on bengkung for the night.
DAY 14
Pagi ni rasa nak mandi air herba. Dah breakfast roti dan milo, makan haruan tablet and NR tablet plus obimin. Semalam pun start ambik obimin. Actually, nak multivitamin tp multivitamin takder, habiskan jer lah obimin tu. Banyak juga kandungan vitamin dalamnya. Kalau beli multivitamin pun, belum tentu habis. Banyak jer pil2 supplement yang dah expired dan akan expired.
Dah mandi, tuam with hot water bottle and rehat sambil berbelog. Berhenti sekejap masak nasi, makan pisang montel untuk alas perut and sambung semula. Pisang tu MIL bagi haritu. Mula2 was-was nak makan. Tapi cuba jer dulu makan sikit, kalau takder apa2, boleh makan lagi. Bila baca pasal pantang-larang ni, heran betul semua buah tempatan tak digalakkan. Boleh nyer orange and red apple. Bagus sangat ker buat import tu? Yang pasti, buah tempatan pun banyak khasiatnya kan. Cuma nature buah tu ler either panas or sejuk. Anyway, dah selamat makan pisang montel. Banyak potassium nya. Orange pun laku pulak time pantang ni. Kalau tak, mcm tak jalan sangat jer sampai kena buat air. Otherwise, kering kecut ler buah tu.
For lunch, panaskan daging masak lada hitam semalam and makan dengan pegaga. Orang kata tak elok makan lauk berpanas 2-3 kali tapi kalau tak makan, membazir pulak. Nasi memang nasi baru, ulam pegaga and lobak merah sebab dah berbelog ni malas pulak nak masak sayur :p Harini akan buat air halia and air kunyit lagi. Kalau ada lagi darah kotor, hope boleh bersihkan semua tu.
CONCLUSION
During confinement, you have to be diligent. It is much easier now with modern pills and technology. Dari tak makan jamu langsung, baik ler telan pil tu. Macam tablet haruan. Kalau takder tablet, tak tertelan pati tu. So insyaAllah akan berterusan lepas ni, mandi air herba or air panas, pakai stokin, tungku, losyen sirih, bengkung, breakfast, tablet haruan, NR tablet, obimin... rehat, buat kerja apa yang patut, siapkan lunch, lunch, rehat, buat kerja apa yang patut, minum petang, rehat, bukak bengkung kejap, siapkan dinner, dinner, rehat, tuam, losyen sirih and bengkung semula. Nampak macam banyak rehat jer kan. Reality, terasa penat dan tak rehat sangat pun bila buat kerja rumah tu. Ada jer yang tak setel, kejap2 bangun. Even I start writing this entry since morning, I have stopped numerous time doing things that needs to be done.
NOTE
It is good to prepare the anchovies with sliced ginger and black pepper and keep it in tupperware as it can keep for a few days. Also have pegaga in the fridge. Anytime, you're too hungry to wait for lunch being cook or too lazy to cook, that will be a healthy meal during confinement.
Air kunyit is a must... for me at least. Air halia is also good to expel wind from the body.
NR Phytonatal tablet is OK as a jamu but I much prefer the herbal tea even though I might not take it all the time. The tea is much gentler on my tummy.
The herbal bath is good as it gives a refreshing feeling.
** If I ever be in confinement again, I hope it is because my pregnancy reached its full term and baby is healthy. I can only hope...
I'll be writing about my confinement because this time is definitely different than all the last time I went through it. Last time, I had air kunyit, 3 days massages and tungku, took care of what I eat for like 2-3 weeks and not be with hubby for the whole confinement duration. At the very least, till my next menses. I just wear bedroom slippers instead of socks, didn't really wrap myself up and use Avon bengkung with strap. It is really small and not really appropriate for confinement practice. It served its purpose last time though.
DAY 1
This time,I have to be more diligent with my confinement rituals. I have baby stuck in me for like half day, tak nak tinggalkan ummi... catheterized twice because the passage is blocked for me to urinate normally, poked and poked and poked at till I felt swollen just above my pubic bone. I can feel a lump and it was very tender to touch. When I asked the doctor and nurses, they said its my uterus. Huh! After the event, it was very painful to urinate the first few times.
DAY 2
The day we returned home, I make arrangement to have a masseuse came over for the next three days and that night we went out to buy myself a proper bengkung. Hubby went out to bought it. In the internet, we can get it for $38. At the shop, it was retailed at $49. After haggling, dapat ler $2 diskaun. Different brand of course. Who cares about the brand as long as it does its work. Dah nak cepat, beli ajer lah. I waited in the car, wrapped up in sweaters and socks. Hubby also tapau ginger beef for my dinner and fried rice for himself.
In the beginning, it was quite difficult getting used to wearing socks. I kick my socks off just before I went to bed.
DAY 3
The next morning, I boiled the herbal bag for my bath, bought during last confinement and I still have 2 bags which can be boiled for several times. During the massage, I felt like running away. My whole body feels tender. Nak cepat baik punya pasal, tahan kan jugak. After the massage, bengkung time. I do feel much better afterwards. It was quite difficult using the bengkung initially. I wore the bengkung immediately after massage. Not long after that, I have to go to the bathroom. So off with the bengkung and tried to wear it again. Sigh! It was like that for few times.
For lunch, I cook sambal telur for hubby and use the microwave to zap the anchovies dry like crackers, mixed with thinly sliced ginger and black pepper for myself. I read somewhere in the internet we can use microwave to fry anchovies. Last time I used frying pan, without oil. It took forever and didn't really dry like crackers. When I use non-stick pan, the anchovies kinda make marks on the pan. It still takes some time with the microwave but definitely easier than using pan. When I was pregnant, I didn't stock up the kitchen. I was too dizzy and nauseous to cook anything. Kunyit pun dah kecut. Halia jer yg nampak masih elok. So buat air halia. Badan memang rasa ada angin.
That night, it was the most difficult night for both of us. I tried to console hubby. We were both sad, but we only have each other now. Whenever the doctor happily suggest, "oh for your next pregnancy, we can do this and that", they forget the emotional part that we have to go through. It wasn't easy facing such lost.
DAY 4
The next morning, the same ritual of herbal bath, tungku and massage. The massage wasn't as bad like yesterday. This time, I went to the bathroom first, before wearing the bengkung. Not that it helped very much. Kencing tak lawas, kejap2 rasa macam nak pergi bilik air. Then, rasa nak buang air besar pun sama. Dah 3rd day, nothing. So in the end tak pakai bengkung sebab kejap2 nak ke tandas, without much success. After the massage, I can't keep still. All this while, dapur dan fridge tak berkemas sebab tak larat. Dah tak pening2 ni, mula lah godek sana, godek sini. In the end rasa sakit badan. This time, hubby is away at work whole day, followed by badminton. Let him whacked his frustration out at the court. He probably did. Balik malam mengadu sakit bahu.
There's nothing at home. Not even anchovies stock. I called the shop to send in gas since our spare has been used, and asked them to send anchovies and milo. They don't have fresh ginger and turmeric. At least, I can have anchovies again for lunch. For dinner, buat kuah sikit with tarmarind juice, onion and ginger. Hubby tak pandai makan lauk kering. I suggested he tapau nasi ayam kukus or whatever for dinner, he didn't mind eating at home. After dinner, I asked him to go to the market. I felt sharp pain at uterus area, not to mention perkara2 yang tak lawas tu. I need my air kunyit and whatever jamu. Last time, I used NR herbal tea. I still have about 3 packets in stock tapi dah expired. So off we went to the market, beli ikan selar, sawi, pegaga, kunyit, halia, orange and hubby nak watermelon. Then off to giant, ada kedai jamu. Beli tablet haruan and NR Phytonatal. Herbal tea tu nnt sah tak minum selalu so better take the NR tablet. Beli di kedai memang mahal. Internet price for the NR tablet, $100. Di kedai $140. I didn't masked my surprise. After 10% discount, dapat ler $126. Again, nak cepat, beli jer. Kalau pregnant full term, sempat ler nak order semua tu through internet.
Sampai rumah, rasa mencucuk makin kuat. Mintak hubby temankan, tapi orang dah kepenatan main badminton, terus tidor. Tuam guna hot water bottle. Tukar air panas 2-3 kali sampai tertidor.
DAY 5
Blood clot... quite big. Patut ler sakit sangat semalam. Yang tak lawas tu, dah OK lepas makan jamu semalam. Again herbal bath, tungku and massage lama sikit harini sebab last day and finally bengkung. Perut masih rasa tak selesa sangat. Tengahari sikit buka bengkung. Today hubby's staff and my friend is coming for a visit so kemas2 rumah sikit walaupun they already mentioned not to bother too much. Ordered pizza for them. Sambil tu, pack barang2 to go MIL's place. They send fruit basket before orangnya sampai. Initially, hubby's meeting after Friday prayer but postponed to 4 p.m. Lambat ler balik with Friday traffic and all. I just had my dinner when hubby returned. Kemas2 rumah, tutup suis apa yang patut, off we go after Maghrib. Pakai bengkung,stokin and sweater. I didn't use param and pilis. Memang kerap sakit kepala, pakai losyen herba sirih yang memang ada dalam simpanan.
At MIL's place, semua bertanya khabar. Ada new baby. So orang berpantang and new baby sleep with MIL. Hubby will be going to Tioman early next day.
DAY 6
Harini mandi air panas jer. Berbengkung and stokin tapi masih tak selesa sangat dengan bengkung tu. Perut pun masih tak selesa. Barang2 yang beli di pasar, bawak ke rumah MIL. Air kunyit dah buat semalam, minum sekali and lebih nya masuk dalam botol. I used the dry blender so memang dapat pati kunyit, bukan air kunyit. Pagi dah minum air kunyit, and MIL bagi telur ayam kampung, makan dengan madu. Suka betul bila dapat makan benda2 yang boleh buat cepat baik. For lunch, masak sendiri ikan selar masak pindang and sawi rebus. Perut tak selesa, kejap2 ke bilik air walaupun takder apa2. Nasib baik mak ngah tolong. In the end, dalam proses memasak and makan, 3x ke bilik air, membuang... air jer yang keluarnya. SIL kata angin tu so cepat2 sapu minyak satu badan and pakai sweater. Took a nap, petang tu OK sikit.
Malam tu MIL asked if I'm cold sebab duduk merengkut semacam. I told her sakit perut. So she whipped out her electric tungku for me to use. After dinner, memang few times panaskan tungku tu and tuam perut.
DAY 7
MIL buat mee kari, ada kerang siap dengan blender kulit udang lagi. I already took my breakfast of bread and nestum. Then MIL ajak makan. Katanya mana nak ada tenaga kalau tak makan. Huh! Makan ler sikit. Takut2 nak makan sebenarnya sebab takut sakit. Ada rasa mencucuk sikit lepas tu tapi tak ler berpanjangan. So in the end buat conclusion takder apa2 pun cuma rasa takut jer nak makan. For lunch, nasib baik ada ikan bilis dengan halia and lada hitam tu, makan nasi dengan pegaga. Cukup ler tu Alhamdulillah. For dinner pun sama, dapat nasi panas2, heaven. MIL tanya OK ker makan camtu? Dia tak reti nak ulam pegaga gitu. OK jer mak... dah lama mabuk pening, dapat makan tanpa rasa nak terkeluar balik ni memang syukur nikmat.
DAY 8
Harini tapau jer breakfast untuk semua orang. As for me, ada roti cukup. Today my classmate came in the afternoon. Buatkan air epal and MIL goreng keropok. Banyak dapat buah, epal hijau memang tak laku kalau tak buat air. Hubby returned later in the day. Dah petang baru sampai. Masih sakit bahu and planned to go for berubat with MIL that night. Tapi tunggu lama sangat, kensel. Sampai rumah dah about 11.
DAY 9
Makan roti lagi, makan juga cekodok BIL buat. Bukan senang nak rasa BIL buat cekodok :) MIL masak awal harini. Nak cuba gi berubat bahu lagi sekali. Masak lada, memang sesuai untuk orang berpantang, tapi ikan pari kat mana2 pun tulis tak elok di makan untuk orang berpantang. Dah makan dah, baru tengok internet. Alhamdulillah takder apa2 pun. Menunggu hubby and MIL balik, buatkan air mangga and epal hijau lagi. Masa tuangkan air mangga untuk hubby ada rasa sikit sebab mangga tu tak laku sebab masam. Sajer nak rasa cukup manis tak. Kalau tak masam, tak payah buat air dah habis. Hubby dah sakit kepala lepas makan sebab menunggu berurut, makan dah lambat. Malam tu perut rasa tak selesa mencucuk. Sebab air mangga or ikan pari? We returned to KL that night. Hubby mengantuk sangat, tapi tak dapat nak bantu drive. Urged him to stop twice and take a nap.
DAY 10
Mandi air herba and berbengkung. Harini banyak rehat and nap. Letih past few days tolong jaga baby, tak tidur sangat. For lunch, panaskan masak lada MIL bekalkan. Rebus sawi untuk tambah sayur. I can eat turmeric raw. But when it comes to garlic, ewww... Garlic yang dah garing dalam microwave OK but garlic yg dalam sayur tu, kunyah2 sayur dengan nasi, bila rasa2 dah ready nak telan makanan, masukkan garlic and telan. Normally I'll just whacked the garlic and throw it away after eating the vege. Nak cepat baik, semua tu kena makan kan. So berusaha juga lah. Hubby returned from work, not feeling well. Gave him panadol and put cool towel on his forehead.
DAY 11
Mandi air panas jer. By this time, dah rasa comfortable berbengkung. Kalau nak ke bilik air, longggarkan sikit ikatan and after that senang ketatkan semula. Cuma perut masih rasa tak comfortable part nak membuang air besar tu. Bila makan NR tablet 1, mcm takder effect. Bila makan dua, kejap2 rasa nak ke bilik air tapi tak selalu berjaya pun. In the end, stick to taking 1. Today buat ikan selar masak pindang sekor, goreng 2 ekor, and buat air asam sikit. Air asam tak cukup bahan. For lunch, hubby makan sikit jer. Tak sedap air asam tu. For dinner, suapkan orang demam nasi dengan ikan goreng buh kicap. Lalu pulak orang demam makan. As for me, masak pindang tu lah.
DAY 12
Mandi air panas jugak. Harini orang demam kena ke office, tapi sebelum tu breakfast roti canai and pergi klinik dulu. Rushing balik rumah, bagi makan ubat and hubby off to office for 10 am appointment. 11 lebih dear hubby balik rumah, kepala dah weng katanya. Mungkin ubat selsema sebab belum bagi ubat batuk. Gave him the cough syrup and let him sleep. By this time, tak larat dah rasa nak makan ikan selar and sawi. So panas kan ikan goreng for hubby and ikan bilis jer lah for me. Risau juga dengan demam and batuk hubby yang tak surut2. Hubby woke up for lunch, suapkan nasi dengan ikan goreng and kicap lagi. Kesian... memang takder benda lain di rumah. Biskut dan roti pun dah habis. Pegaga pun dah habis daunnya, tinggal batang dan akar jer. Petang tu ajak hubby ke giant, he waited in the car. Lepas ni he has to be off to MLK family pulak. So pakai sweater, tak pakai stokin, jalan mcm orang bukan dalam pantang beli barang2 yang dah ada dalam senarai. Alhamdulillah kebanyakannya ada. For dinner, alter kan air asam yang tak sedap tu... fuhhh berasap makan tp makan sikit jer sebab tak berani makan pedas2 sgt.
DAY 13
Harini amik angin siram pokok pagi dan petang. Hubby risau betul pokok dah berapa hari tak siram. Tak lah berat sangat kerja tu kan. Bukak paip and pegang getah air jer. Tugasan cuci baju pun banyak dah selesai. Today, towel2 yang dah lama ada dalam laundry basket tapi tak tercuci sebab larat cuci baju2 penting jer, dah berangkat pun. Kain baju pun semua dah lipat cuma belum larat nak angkut and simpan di wardrobe atas. Last sekali yang outstanding in the laundry basket, cadar 2 sets and my tudung sebab tudung2 tu bukan boleh cuci macam biasa. Habis ler awning dia. Part menyapu jer yg lemah sikit bila akan bermain dengan habuk ni. My indon helper dulu pun dah tak nak datang since pindah rumah ni sebab jauh sangat katanya. For now, tutup mata jer dulu. Anyway, menu harini daging masak lada hitam with lots of halia and sawi pak choy.
Yang pelik harini, milk factory memang gatal dari time pregnant haritu. Bila menggaru memang tak ingat dunia. Harini keluar air... erkkk...
Cuba nak buat kerja sekolah harini. Minggu ni akan ponteng kelas coz too soon for me to sit for hours in aircond room and also drive. Next week, akan tumpang my friend. Kenapa yer tak boleh drive? Ni bukan pantang larang orang tua jer. My gynae dulu pun tak bagi. Urat rahim ada di ibu jari kaki katanya. Driving movement tu walaupun nampak tak seberapa, tak berapa sesuai for healing uterus. Apa2 hal, takut bentan. So better ikut dari mudarat.
Bila nak buat kerja sekolah, banyak pulak idea nak browse. Browse cerita pasal confinement experience orang, bila cerita part deliver tu, memang lah meleleh air mata. I go through it too... cuma tak cukup sempurna. Baru ler faham senario berpantang sebetulnya. Sebelum ni, buat sikit2 jer. It is the routine tu yang tak ramai nak buat i.e. mandi, tungku, all the necessary rempah ratus, param, pilis and bengkung for the whole confinement duration. Sanggup? So berazam akan buat betul2 after this. Sebelum ni memang masa berurut tukang urut ada tanya bengkung tak? Tungku tak? Mungkin sebab keadaan perut dan rahim yang tak berapa OK.
Bila pakai bengkung avon tu sekarang, rasa mcm takder apa jer. Mcm pakai girdle yang tak berapa ketat. Mungkin sebab dah lama elasticity dah kurang tp dulu ok jer. Mungkin juga dah biasa pakai bengkung ketat, setakat sikit mcm tu tak rasa apa.
Rasanya pakai bengkung panjang tu much better as dia ikut badan. Coz bengkung ni, badan pun belum kembang lagi, pregnant haritu losing weight sebab muntah jer, so the top part tak boleh nak ketatkan lagi. In the end, it will scrunch up at the waist. Part yang lain tu ok lah. Bahagian yang bengkak dekat pubic bone tu, sajer tarik ikatan tu kuat2. Now tak rasa bengkak tu lagi. Untuk orang yang dah biasa mengurut, tak tau ler boleh rasa bengkak atau tidak. Anyway, dah hujung2 confinement period nnt, akan berurut lagi. Nak amik full package - sauna, tungku, massage, tangas. Kalau rajin, lulur and mandi sekali. Selalu tak suka lama2 sgt. Penat ler nak tunggu semua tu habis. Now masih ada darah nifas, lama pulak this time. Dulu few days to one week. Pregnancy duration pun lebih lama this time. Petang dan malam, tungku dengan hot water bottle. Pakai losyen sirih before putting on bengkung for the night.
DAY 14
Pagi ni rasa nak mandi air herba. Dah breakfast roti dan milo, makan haruan tablet and NR tablet plus obimin. Semalam pun start ambik obimin. Actually, nak multivitamin tp multivitamin takder, habiskan jer lah obimin tu. Banyak juga kandungan vitamin dalamnya. Kalau beli multivitamin pun, belum tentu habis. Banyak jer pil2 supplement yang dah expired dan akan expired.
Dah mandi, tuam with hot water bottle and rehat sambil berbelog. Berhenti sekejap masak nasi, makan pisang montel untuk alas perut and sambung semula. Pisang tu MIL bagi haritu. Mula2 was-was nak makan. Tapi cuba jer dulu makan sikit, kalau takder apa2, boleh makan lagi. Bila baca pasal pantang-larang ni, heran betul semua buah tempatan tak digalakkan. Boleh nyer orange and red apple. Bagus sangat ker buat import tu? Yang pasti, buah tempatan pun banyak khasiatnya kan. Cuma nature buah tu ler either panas or sejuk. Anyway, dah selamat makan pisang montel. Banyak potassium nya. Orange pun laku pulak time pantang ni. Kalau tak, mcm tak jalan sangat jer sampai kena buat air. Otherwise, kering kecut ler buah tu.
For lunch, panaskan daging masak lada hitam semalam and makan dengan pegaga. Orang kata tak elok makan lauk berpanas 2-3 kali tapi kalau tak makan, membazir pulak. Nasi memang nasi baru, ulam pegaga and lobak merah sebab dah berbelog ni malas pulak nak masak sayur :p Harini akan buat air halia and air kunyit lagi. Kalau ada lagi darah kotor, hope boleh bersihkan semua tu.
CONCLUSION
During confinement, you have to be diligent. It is much easier now with modern pills and technology. Dari tak makan jamu langsung, baik ler telan pil tu. Macam tablet haruan. Kalau takder tablet, tak tertelan pati tu. So insyaAllah akan berterusan lepas ni, mandi air herba or air panas, pakai stokin, tungku, losyen sirih, bengkung, breakfast, tablet haruan, NR tablet, obimin... rehat, buat kerja apa yang patut, siapkan lunch, lunch, rehat, buat kerja apa yang patut, minum petang, rehat, bukak bengkung kejap, siapkan dinner, dinner, rehat, tuam, losyen sirih and bengkung semula. Nampak macam banyak rehat jer kan. Reality, terasa penat dan tak rehat sangat pun bila buat kerja rumah tu. Ada jer yang tak setel, kejap2 bangun. Even I start writing this entry since morning, I have stopped numerous time doing things that needs to be done.
NOTE
It is good to prepare the anchovies with sliced ginger and black pepper and keep it in tupperware as it can keep for a few days. Also have pegaga in the fridge. Anytime, you're too hungry to wait for lunch being cook or too lazy to cook, that will be a healthy meal during confinement.
Air kunyit is a must... for me at least. Air halia is also good to expel wind from the body.
NR Phytonatal tablet is OK as a jamu but I much prefer the herbal tea even though I might not take it all the time. The tea is much gentler on my tummy.
The herbal bath is good as it gives a refreshing feeling.
** If I ever be in confinement again, I hope it is because my pregnancy reached its full term and baby is healthy. I can only hope...
Saturday, February 11, 2012
13 days
It has been 13 days since 'the' day it happened. I miss baby... but no amount of tears would bring baby back. I know that... but it is not easy to let go and move on.
Went to MIL's place a few days ago. My brother-in-law adopted the cutest baby boy just 2 days before my miscarriage. I took care of him for a few days while at MIL's place. I can't help but wish its my baby, perfect and healthy. I probably can't hold myself if its a girl. Looking at him, holding him, smelling him, I just wonder how it would be like if we have our own baby.
Only Allah knows if we'll ever have a baby. When I accepted hubby as the one destined for me, I hope I have the same strength to accept the loss of baby... and all our losses. A friend suggested I really rest for now and only think about things after my confinement. I probably should follow her suggestion. My emotion is still very raw at the moment.
I'm undergoing the full 44 days confinement for my body to heal and for me to gain my strength. As of now, I still get tired easily. Is it due to the 'bengkung' for making me short of breath easily? Even if it is so, I can understand the benefit of using it while in confinement so I'll be using it as much as I can stand it. I take it off whenever I feel like I need to breathe more than support my body.
I still don't have much appetite. I have no appetite for food that I don't like when I was pregnant either... like fried chicken. Most people undergoing confinement would crave for certain food and glorify when they get it either during or after confinement. As for me, there is nothing to glorify, nothing to celebrate. I don't have dizziness and nausea anymore but I don't feel like celebrating. I eat to recover and to be healthy fast. Turmeric juice, ginger, black pepper, pegaga, anchovies and fish, haruan tablet, NR Phytonatal tablet, oranges, anything that has been said to help body heal. I also avoid food that are not encouraged during confinement. No big deal when you don't have much appetite to begin with. I cook to make sure it has all the right ingredients.
I've had my massage and tungku on the 3rd to 5th day. I'll have few more massage sessions later. Right now I spend more time in our guest bedroom so I don't have to use the stairs often. I don't feel like watching TV too. When I had nausea last time, nothing much I can do but lie down and watch TV. Our favorite show (baby and I), Bones and NCIS. Now, I tolerated the sports channel when hubby is watching and also TV Al-Hijrah. It is no fun watching Bones and NCIS without baby.
I'm wondering what happen to the milk factory. I can feel it swollen much like when I was pregnant or when having period and there is sharp pain every now and then. I haven't tried extracting milk yet. Will it recover by itself eventually? SIL suggested cabbage leave and I forgot all about it when I shopped for groceries yesterday. I still shop for necessities. I wear my bengkung, socks and sweater and shop with hubby. Only yesterday I shop alone coz hubby is down with fever. He drove me to Giant and wait in the car.
Hubby has been having fever ever since we return from MIL's place. These past few days has been spent taking care of hubby. I love pampering him. He has been like a steady rock all these while... even more so after baby is gone. I find comfort in his arms and I love him more after we have to go through what we went through. May Allah give strength to both of us.
I hope I'll recover physically and emotionally soon... probably getting back to work, go on a date with hubby, going shopping or girls outing would get me back to living our normal life.
Went to MIL's place a few days ago. My brother-in-law adopted the cutest baby boy just 2 days before my miscarriage. I took care of him for a few days while at MIL's place. I can't help but wish its my baby, perfect and healthy. I probably can't hold myself if its a girl. Looking at him, holding him, smelling him, I just wonder how it would be like if we have our own baby.
Only Allah knows if we'll ever have a baby. When I accepted hubby as the one destined for me, I hope I have the same strength to accept the loss of baby... and all our losses. A friend suggested I really rest for now and only think about things after my confinement. I probably should follow her suggestion. My emotion is still very raw at the moment.
I'm undergoing the full 44 days confinement for my body to heal and for me to gain my strength. As of now, I still get tired easily. Is it due to the 'bengkung' for making me short of breath easily? Even if it is so, I can understand the benefit of using it while in confinement so I'll be using it as much as I can stand it. I take it off whenever I feel like I need to breathe more than support my body.
I still don't have much appetite. I have no appetite for food that I don't like when I was pregnant either... like fried chicken. Most people undergoing confinement would crave for certain food and glorify when they get it either during or after confinement. As for me, there is nothing to glorify, nothing to celebrate. I don't have dizziness and nausea anymore but I don't feel like celebrating. I eat to recover and to be healthy fast. Turmeric juice, ginger, black pepper, pegaga, anchovies and fish, haruan tablet, NR Phytonatal tablet, oranges, anything that has been said to help body heal. I also avoid food that are not encouraged during confinement. No big deal when you don't have much appetite to begin with. I cook to make sure it has all the right ingredients.
I've had my massage and tungku on the 3rd to 5th day. I'll have few more massage sessions later. Right now I spend more time in our guest bedroom so I don't have to use the stairs often. I don't feel like watching TV too. When I had nausea last time, nothing much I can do but lie down and watch TV. Our favorite show (baby and I), Bones and NCIS. Now, I tolerated the sports channel when hubby is watching and also TV Al-Hijrah. It is no fun watching Bones and NCIS without baby.
I'm wondering what happen to the milk factory. I can feel it swollen much like when I was pregnant or when having period and there is sharp pain every now and then. I haven't tried extracting milk yet. Will it recover by itself eventually? SIL suggested cabbage leave and I forgot all about it when I shopped for groceries yesterday. I still shop for necessities. I wear my bengkung, socks and sweater and shop with hubby. Only yesterday I shop alone coz hubby is down with fever. He drove me to Giant and wait in the car.
Hubby has been having fever ever since we return from MIL's place. These past few days has been spent taking care of hubby. I love pampering him. He has been like a steady rock all these while... even more so after baby is gone. I find comfort in his arms and I love him more after we have to go through what we went through. May Allah give strength to both of us.
I hope I'll recover physically and emotionally soon... probably getting back to work, go on a date with hubby, going shopping or girls outing would get me back to living our normal life.
Friday, February 10, 2012
The Story of Our Life...
The story of our life... have you ever given it a thought? When do you have it easy and when it is not?
- Childhood...I remember it wasn't easy for me when I was in Std 6.
- Teen... everybody has some issues during their teens. My parents were divorced when I was in form 2.
- Education... Looking back, it has been relatively easy for me from primary school right up to my first degree. Scholarship, financial assistance, my grades.
- First job... not bad considering it's during recession time.
- Working life... I know what I want, I am doing what I love most.
- Single life... I've had my heartaches but it gets easier with acceptance, hobbies and appreciating myself. I know of a friend whose life mission is finding a life partner. I thought I'd be miserable if that is the sole purpose of my existence.
- Finding 'the one'... it wasn't easy. I thought there is no 'the one' for me.
- Getting married... difficult is an understatement
- Married life... love conquers all
- Family life... we're still trying.
- Childhood...I remember it wasn't easy for me when I was in Std 6.
- Teen... everybody has some issues during their teens. My parents were divorced when I was in form 2.
- Education... Looking back, it has been relatively easy for me from primary school right up to my first degree. Scholarship, financial assistance, my grades.
- First job... not bad considering it's during recession time.
- Working life... I know what I want, I am doing what I love most.
- Single life... I've had my heartaches but it gets easier with acceptance, hobbies and appreciating myself. I know of a friend whose life mission is finding a life partner. I thought I'd be miserable if that is the sole purpose of my existence.
- Finding 'the one'... it wasn't easy. I thought there is no 'the one' for me.
- Getting married... difficult is an understatement
- Married life... love conquers all
- Family life... we're still trying.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Baby Say Bye Bye Ummi, Ayah...
Baby dah takder.
Baby nak teman ayah dan ummi 4 bulan jer.
I miss having baby so much... vomiting, nausea and all.
When I was at the hospital, I was very calm. Almost no emotion. I was just going through the motion... all the procedures. The moment I almost reached home after being discharged, all the emotions surfaced. Reality hit home. I felt very lonely. Hubby was coping too. Last nite was quite difficult to get through for both of us. I just knew we have to be strong for each other. insyaAllah baby is in a better place now. Sometimes, I do feel like kesian baby alone, kesian baby sejuk... have to remember she is in a better place.
Baby's sex still can't be determined. We would like to believe it's a girl.
The following is something I wrote offline while I was in the hospital. Nothing to do in the ward. I was just documenting events with not much feeling. It's helpful however as it records the events so I won't forget anything important.
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Sat
Woke up around 2:40 am. Can't sleep till morning.
Doze off for a while around 7.
Breakfast fried mee with sambal.
Poop 3x. Hard ones, and painful tummy. I thought is it because of the fried mee? Later thoughts -- Is that actually effect of contraction?
Sleep early.
Sun
Woke up before 5 am. Urgent feeling to urinate. Almost didn't make it to the loo. A lot. Rush several times to the loo till around 10 before I took a bath to prepare to go to class. Later thoughts -- Is that really when my water broke?
Go to class. Lunch and dinner at cafe. I felt quite OK. No vomiting. Thought must be because I'm approaching 4 months. Happy I'm feeling better.
Quite jammed on the way back. People from long CNY holiday returning to KL.
Sleep early.
Mon
Woke up before 5 am. Sneezing...
Bleeding a little.
Stumped. Why? Only spotting, I could wait till morning to go to the hospital.
Hungry. Made Milo and had 3 pieces of biscuit.
Felt something, check, more bleeding, worried.
Toilet call, baby feet.
The private hospital I went for check up do not want to take the case. I would never go to them ever again.
Ambulance to Hospital Serdang.
Emergency room, asked to push, unsuccessful.
Sent to labour room.
Dr arrived at 10, tried pushing again, no luck. Given something to cause contraction. Nothing happened till 12:40. Baby's out 12:44. Placenta still inside. Wait for 1.5 hours, painful contraction. Dr helped get the placenta out. Poke and poke and poke in between contractions. Finally out at 2:45, no need for D&C.
Baby sent to mortuary. 60 grams.
Hubby arrived around 4 to take baby and perform burial at home.
Hubby reached hospital again around 6 and show burial video. So sad.
Why? Everyone said vomiting showed strong hormones, baby should be OK. Apparently not.
Warded for one night observation.
Can't sleep till midnight. My mind is busy, but I don't know what I was thinking.
Woke up at 2:40, can't sleep till 5. Thinking again, mind racing. Fell asleep till around breakfast time. Can't wait to go home. Dr just came, they will scan first, if everything clear, can be discharge today. Otherwise D&C.
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Today, I received a call from 'the' private hospital. The nurse asked if i'm ok since my last visit. I told her what happened. Apparently, the emergency dept staff told my gynae someone called and they sent me to govt hospital. They must have received an earful from my gynae. Since they didn't asked for my name, she gets her nurse to call all her patients. Nice gesture, but it is too late. I know it's not her fault though. At least I got to tell her of our disappointment.
Miss u baby...
Baby nak teman ayah dan ummi 4 bulan jer.
I miss having baby so much... vomiting, nausea and all.
When I was at the hospital, I was very calm. Almost no emotion. I was just going through the motion... all the procedures. The moment I almost reached home after being discharged, all the emotions surfaced. Reality hit home. I felt very lonely. Hubby was coping too. Last nite was quite difficult to get through for both of us. I just knew we have to be strong for each other. insyaAllah baby is in a better place now. Sometimes, I do feel like kesian baby alone, kesian baby sejuk... have to remember she is in a better place.
Baby's sex still can't be determined. We would like to believe it's a girl.
The following is something I wrote offline while I was in the hospital. Nothing to do in the ward. I was just documenting events with not much feeling. It's helpful however as it records the events so I won't forget anything important.
--------- ***** ----------
Sat
Woke up around 2:40 am. Can't sleep till morning.
Doze off for a while around 7.
Breakfast fried mee with sambal.
Poop 3x. Hard ones, and painful tummy. I thought is it because of the fried mee? Later thoughts -- Is that actually effect of contraction?
Sleep early.
Sun
Woke up before 5 am. Urgent feeling to urinate. Almost didn't make it to the loo. A lot. Rush several times to the loo till around 10 before I took a bath to prepare to go to class. Later thoughts -- Is that really when my water broke?
Go to class. Lunch and dinner at cafe. I felt quite OK. No vomiting. Thought must be because I'm approaching 4 months. Happy I'm feeling better.
Quite jammed on the way back. People from long CNY holiday returning to KL.
Sleep early.
Mon
Woke up before 5 am. Sneezing...
Bleeding a little.
Stumped. Why? Only spotting, I could wait till morning to go to the hospital.
Hungry. Made Milo and had 3 pieces of biscuit.
Felt something, check, more bleeding, worried.
Toilet call, baby feet.
The private hospital I went for check up do not want to take the case. I would never go to them ever again.
Ambulance to Hospital Serdang.
Emergency room, asked to push, unsuccessful.
Sent to labour room.
Dr arrived at 10, tried pushing again, no luck. Given something to cause contraction. Nothing happened till 12:40. Baby's out 12:44. Placenta still inside. Wait for 1.5 hours, painful contraction. Dr helped get the placenta out. Poke and poke and poke in between contractions. Finally out at 2:45, no need for D&C.
Baby sent to mortuary. 60 grams.
Hubby arrived around 4 to take baby and perform burial at home.
Hubby reached hospital again around 6 and show burial video. So sad.
Why? Everyone said vomiting showed strong hormones, baby should be OK. Apparently not.
Warded for one night observation.
Can't sleep till midnight. My mind is busy, but I don't know what I was thinking.
Woke up at 2:40, can't sleep till 5. Thinking again, mind racing. Fell asleep till around breakfast time. Can't wait to go home. Dr just came, they will scan first, if everything clear, can be discharge today. Otherwise D&C.
--------- ***** ----------
Today, I received a call from 'the' private hospital. The nurse asked if i'm ok since my last visit. I told her what happened. Apparently, the emergency dept staff told my gynae someone called and they sent me to govt hospital. They must have received an earful from my gynae. Since they didn't asked for my name, she gets her nurse to call all her patients. Nice gesture, but it is too late. I know it's not her fault though. At least I got to tell her of our disappointment.
Miss u baby...
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