Today I'm quite excited because I planned to do some groceries shopping. Who gets excited to do that huh? I planned to walk around for a while before I do the actual shopping since dah lama memerap di rumah. I get exhausted walking up the stairs to our master bedroom... sungguh takder stamina. So I figured walking can be a good exercise (or excuse) to go shopping :) Giant pun, Giant lah. Before that I browse for strap on binder or bengkung moden because I'm not really satisfied with my current bengkung that bunched up at the waist. Cantik jer nampak gambar2 bengkung lain looks very firm from below the breast right up to hips.
Bukan apa... I have been having problems with previous pregnancies kan and one of the possibility mentioned by doctor, rahim lemah. So kenalah jaga betul2 untuk kesihatan sendiri and future possibilities. After shower and putting on lotion halia, use my bengkung and I wear corsets that I bought for my wedding day last time. It will keep the top part of the bengkung firm and also hide unsightly bulges aka spare tyre area perut tu. Plannyer ke Giant nanti, nak survey bengkung Cosway and yang dijual di Guardian kalau2 sesuai dan cukup panjang for me (cover below breast right up to hips). Verdict after wearing the corset, hmmmm.... I need to do something with the spare tyre.
Then I get a phone call from IKA service technician. I reported a broken bulb on my cooker hob during gas problem few days ago. They will be coming to fix the lights. So I have to wait for them... tergendala sebentar plan nak ke Giant. While waiting, browse on bengkung till I found 1 blog with a really sad story. They lost their baby during delivery due to broken uterus. Rahim pecah! Bukan main2. Bila rahim pecah, baby tiada lagi tempat khas untuknya dan dia bergerak2 dalam perut dan boleh membahayakan kedua2 nyawa. Bayangkan baby bergerak hingga ke rusuk. The doctor tried to save the baby but she didn't make it and then tried to save the mom. Alhamdulillah mom can be saved after a long time in the operation theatre since she still has another young son to take care of. Tak baca semua entri dalam blog ni. Tak sanggup rasanya.
Will there be a next time for me? If I get pregnant, I will need help with the hormone in the first few weeks, and then the doctor suggested ikat rahim within week 14-16 to avoid baby from prematurely leaving my body as the uterus might not be capable of holding the baby weight. These are all predictions. There is no guarantee. Hubby always said, whatever happened is due to His will. I know that... I can't help but think of ways and effort that can be taken to prevent mishaps from happening again. We are also encouraged to find ways and pray to Allah to get what we want. So many ifs to think about... Sigh! No point thinking about all that now. I must get healthy and recover soon.
Dah takder mood nak groceries shopping. Lagi pun almost lunch time. I might as well take my lunch before badan masuk angin and then tengok masih ada mood atau tidak untuk berjalan2 petang2 sikit.
Sunflower gives the connotation of cheerfulness, bright, jolly, merry... you get the idea! However, if any content in this blog didn't fit the cheerfulness implied by its name, look at it this way... I'm putting down all the wretchedness, gloom, melancholy feeling in here so I can continue living up to the expectation of making the association to the sunflower.
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