Saturday, November 26, 2011

The Eating Part

*tutup mulut*

*geleng kepala*

Tolong.... tak nak... tak nak...

I really have no appetite. Thinking of eating really makes me feel... no... please no.... Once I ate, I'd be OK. In fact, I sometimes continue feeling hungry after a meal. But to begin eating is the problem. It's like how difficult it is to start working out but once you do, it's OK.

I have no cravings for anything in particular but there are also times when everything shown in the cook show looks so appetizing. Even the food ad... Could be because those are out of reach.

Sigh! Thank God I can still stomach biscuit and bread even though I really have to force myself eat them for my health.

Thank God I'm not vomiting. Just nauseous and dizzy every now and then.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Bleep... bleep... bleep...

Bleep... bleep... bleep... I can't describe my feelings the moment I see the tiny heartbeat blinking on the screen. I know it's still very early. But we've succeeded the first stage i.e. seeing the heartbeat :) Please pray for us ok. It really has been difficult to determine the size and no. of weeks previously but now it's confirmed I'm at around 6 weeks.

You know, all those talk about positive thinking and law of attractions got me thinking. It's good to be positive and optimistic rather than the opposite. But, if you've met with several failures, it's hard to be positive. True, after so many failures could mean you're one step closer to success but you can't help but think this could be another failure. I've faced it in so many situations. Alhamdulillah despite not being very optimistic, I do have those moments of succees :)

I'm not gloating or anything about my state. After several failures, I'll not dare say anything till I've hold the little bundle of joy in my arms. For now, I'll take it one day at a time. I can still see the bleeping heart in my mind :) Keep beating little heart.
Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Steady Supply of Vege

This gives us a steady supply of lady's fingers. I got bored cooped up inside earlier so I walked outside for a while, inspecting our farmville and harvesting the crop :) The photo is taken via my HTC in the afternoon sun. Couldn't get a sharp image and didn't adjust the white balance. Too hot to adjust the settings so just take it as it is. Soon we'll have more types of vegies like the long beans, angled beans & eggplants. It's nice being able to pluck something from the tree and cook them.
Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

The Fourth

I thought I'm not gonna write about the fourth till I'm sure everything is OK. But, since I'm trying to keep it to myself, hubby and the closest of family as much as I can, and those on a need to know basis only, I really need to write this down. There's no one else I can talk to about my fears and worry. Hubby has been seeing me with a worried face for a few days. We have been in this together. I can't worry him more than he already is.

First, the confirmation. I began to worry already. Hubby's not around for me to share the news. In the past I've broken the news when he wasn't around, I'd like to see his reaction. I'm happy to see he's happy but I'm also worried nevertheless. I don't have a good track record.

Second, the checkup. The doctor can't really confirm the exact no. of weeks but she was sure it's still very early. She prescribed Duphaston and Caspirin but since I'm allergic to aspirin, Caspirin was striked out. Only after a few days, I was spotting. Brown spots. Yesterday, red. I was tired. Really tired. It's Friday afternoon. The traffic was heavy. Hubby's not around. It took me an hour to reach the hospital. I wasn't really scheduled so I have to wait for about half an hour. It feels very long with the dizziness I was feeling and all the uncomfortable feeling physically as well as emotionally. This time, the doctor confirmed the size is 0.97mm, less than 1mm which means around 4 weeks. She gave me injections for the bleeding. Supposed to be able to stop the bleeding in 5 days and I need to get another 1 if bleeding continues.

The doctor advice me not to work if its possible. I have a meeting and training next week. I called my associate company, explained the situation and thank God they said they'll make the necessary arrangements. I'm in a very volatile situation. It wouldn't be fair if something happen at the last minute and inconvenience so many people. Might as well pull out now which gives me the time to rest as well.

Hubby wondered how I'm going to fare since there is already so many complications at the early stage. Truthfully, I don't know. I don't know what to expect, I don't know what to hope for. We have planned for two holiday trips soon. I don't know whether I'll be able to make it. What will happen if I do go and there's problem? Living in this uncertainty doesn't sit well with me. But there is nothing much I can do isn't it. Just go through it one day at a time, hoping for the best and preparing for any eventualities. I should be a pro at facing those eventualities by now.

Friday, November 18, 2011

The Perils of a Smartphone

Before there is smartphone, I happily carry my Cokia phone everywhere I go with a knowledge it will last me for a few days before I need to charge the battery.

Before there is smartphone, if I forget my charger, I can be assured someone will have the same kind of charger that I can borrow.

Before there is smartphone, I believe I have everything I need in a phone.

With smartphone, I worry about where I can charge the phone as I expect the phone battery to last less than a day.

With smartphone, people uses many diverse brands (iPhone, BB, Samsung, other mobile phones) that I may not be able to find someone who has a compatible charger that easily.

With smartphone, I need a powerbank to ensure I can remain connected on the go.

With smartphone, I must remember to carry the charger all the time, and the powerbank, and the powerbank charger.

With smartphone, I must ensure I have internet connection otherwise the phone is smart for nothing.

With smartphone, I now have to carry many things all the time to support the connectivity of the smartphone.

And lastly,

With smartphone, I can blog straight from the phone.
Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

Sunday, November 13, 2011

The Art of Enjoying Your Holiday Travel

It's a very quiet Sunday. The sun was shining brightly this morning though it has turned to cloudy now. There is not much noise except for the whir of the fan and the typing on the keyboard right now. I'm in the midst of completing my assignment, but I'd like to take a short break blogging :) It has been a while since I wrote about general matters. Most of the time the entries I wrote were about my trips, family events and how stress I was with the assignments. Well, I think this entry is timely since the end of the year and school break is just around the corner where everyone will start thinking of planning for their holidays.

How easy or difficult is it to enjoy your holiday? I believe it is all about choices and we really, truly HAVE a choice. You have saved your annual leaves to go for a well deserved holiday (maybe even threat your boss to get the approval), you have saved up some money to spend for the holiday, you have your friends or family members joining you for a memorable holiday, do you want to end up NOT enjoying it? I believe not. You want an enjoyable holiday and you want to return inspired, have more zest and vigor to continue with your life, maybe even rekindle the romance with your spouse (like going on a second, third, or fourth, honeymoon). How then do you ensure you'll enjoy your travel and holiday? As I've mentioned earlier, you make a CHOICE and STICK with it.

- If the transportation is late, take it in stride. Cussing and swearing will not make your cab or plane come any earlier.

- If the room is lousy, calmly get the hotel to give you a better room. If that fails, get another hotel or the last resort, make do with what you have. At least you have some place to sleep. Write a true review of the accommodation to other travelers like in the Trip Advisor to let go of that unsatisfactory feeling. Then be done with it and enjoy your holiday.

- Have some bread, biscuit or chocolate to satisfy the hungry pang temporarily while waiting for your meal. Some food joints do take their own sweet time of preparing your food. Or maybe they are just not used to the big crowd at their place during holidays.

- If you are met with inconsiderate people anywhere during your travel, brush it off as one of your life's experience. Distant yourself from them, politely say you want to enjoy the sunset view for a while, smile and leave, change the subject, negotiate and be fair, etc. Do something about it, don't suffer in silence. Not good for your heart and not good for the holiday

- If you have kids and they are acting up, stay calm. Shouting over their voices will not accomplish anything. Make sure they are not coming down with something and the younger ones have taken their nap or are comfortable enough. Have some snacks or toys handy, or buy something to distract them, then stay calm and pray they'll keep quiet. I have seen how some parents have mastered the art of going away to somewhere calm and peaceful while their kids are crying or shouting at the top of their lungs. The people around them might feel uncomfortable with the kid's noise but the parents look oblivious and very serene in their own world. Go there. Master that art. You're going to need it. If it is not your kid who are acting up, and you don't even have your own, master that art too. If you have kids, maybe the same thing will happen too. So forgive the parents and put on that earphone.

- Take care of what you eat and have some charcoal tablets or antacid ready. You won't be enjoying your holiday on an upset tummy. Make sure you have plenty of drinking water too. We don't want you getting dehydrated.

- Take care of your important documents like passport, and wallet. You certainly won't enjoy your holiday if these goes missing. Also take care of your camera and mobile phones.

In short, think of all the investment you've made for the holiday and make a choice.

- Enjoy your surrounding.
- Watch people, culture and nature.
- Take a deep breathe and do some breathing exercise.
- Bring a book or magazine to read.
- Play that game on your smartphone or tablet but not too engrossed with it that you might as well not go for the holiday.
- Take photographs... the cheapest souvenir of any travel.
- Talk to people, you'll never know what you might learn from them. But, be vigilant and be careful.
- Be thankful.

So, have a wonderful time planning for your holiday and good luck in making sure you enjoy it. Choose to be nice and choose to be happy :) Don't be grumpy and spoil the fun with your family or friends. Hakuna matata...

Saturday, November 12, 2011

New Grass

We finally put in the Philippine grass. We were undecided at the beginning because we're still slowly putting in plants for our garden. But, the grass really grows fast. Hubby has to mow the lawn every other week, carting the machine here and MLK house and MIL's place. He brought the smaller Bosch machine here but it broke down after using it like twice. So last Wed the Bangla or Pakistani worker who were involved in our house renovation came to see him and take measurements of our lawn. Started work the next day and completed it yesterday.

Before
After
It looks very green and clean, I feel like rolling on the carpet :) I have high respect for the Bangladeshi or Pakistani workers. Now, they work on their own. They went for Friday prayer yesterday. They can't last time when working for Chinese contractors. They work and learn and find better opportunities. How many of us dare to do that? I've heard many complaints from workers when I conducted my trainings, who are not satisfied with their job and yet they have been there for ages. If you dare to change, good for you.

Having said that, now I'm looking at my old Impiana Laman magazines to get some ideas. We're slowly and steadily on our way for a beautiful garden :)

Friday, November 11, 2011

The November Story

11.11.11 :)

Everybody has been busy doing something to mark this special date. I received an email early this morning from my lecturer asking for our assignments. Uhuh... the good news, I'm not the only one who submitted late. The bad news, he gave final deadline at 3 pm today. Still that has not managed to spur me into action ASAP. There were so many distractions today. I could be more disciplined though. I managed to submit the assignment at 3:11pm. My lecturer has acknowledge receipt while I'm writing this. Now the immediate pressure's off, I'd like to blog about some important events this month.

06.11.11

One of my classmates went to perform her Hajj this year. I envy her. I hope the time for me will arrive soon. Aidil Adha here is far more quiet than Aidil Fitri. This year is quite different though since we performed 'Korban' at MIL's place. Family gathering is most often not relaxing with all the cooking and washing and kids running... but they were fun nonetheless. Especially spending the time with family members and the eating part :)

05.11.11

We begin the morning hunting for breakfast. The normal breakfast place was not open. Duh! It's the day before Aidil Adha.... most people would be on their way back to hometown or preparing for the big day. Lucky for us, we found a decent place for many hungry tummies. Then the boys went for a swim. Sis and I watched them play. We went to MIL's place next and spend the days catching up with family members.

04.11.11

We woke up early to start our journey to KTN. Hubby has to send his tender documents. We went out slightly before 6:30 a.m to beat the morning traffic. The timing was just nice. We had about an hour before submission deadline giving us enough time to make a copy and sealing the documents in envelopes. Then we make our way to MLK, continuing the drive for another 3 hours or so. It was so tiring. We stopped for lunch along the way but hubby's hungry by the time we reached MLK's place. I could eat something too. We went out again to buy late birthday present for hubby and have dinner together. I fell asleep almost immediately after my head touches the pillow despite the sneezes. I woke up later, about 1 a.m to continue sneezing till about 4 a.m. before I managed to fall asleep again. Sigh!

03.11.11


We went out quite early looking for a place to have breakfast before exploring Cameron Highland. Thank God the one and only Muslim nearby stall opens when I thought we have to go to Brinchang town just to look for breakfast. After that we headed to Gunung Brinchang, following the road signs till we saw the road closure info. Duh! They should have put it at the beginning of the route. Nonetheless, the view of hills and valleys of Palas Boh Tea plantantion were amazing. I can't stop staring. Simply a beautiful sight. Kinda make you wanna sing The Sound of Music in between the tea trees :)


We then continued shopping for few more things before heading home. Hubby's tender deadline submission looming. We bought some corn, some sweet potatoes, strawberry jam, and hubby has his sight on a grape tree. After haggling, we bought one. We returned to our room, packed, can't wait to leave the hotel. We stopped to buy petai along the way, quick stop for honey at Ringlet and fresh bamboo shoots from the orang asli hut. I have never cook, taste, even see fresh bamboo shoots in the market before. Will get dear MIL to help cook the bamboo shoots.

On the way down, there's a lorry in front of us dangerously tilting to the right every time there's a sharp turn. At one point, the left back tire was almost lifted off the ground. The driver ushered us to overtake him when the road is clear but hubby's not doing so worrying at the lorry's cargo whatever those were under the covers. The driver finally stopped when there is enough space by the roadside for him to do so. Hubby sped off. Then it started raining and it gets really heavy when we almost reached Tapah. I will almost definitely get motion sickness on route like that. For some reason, I didn't this time. Must be due to my stuffed nose and sneezes, jamming the ear balance somewhat. Whatever that is, I'm very grateful.

We stopped for lunch and more fruits at the Tapah R&R. Then continue our journey, reaching home sweet home at almost 3 p.m. Poor hubby has to continue with his tender documents till about 1 a.m. before going to sleep and waking up at 4 a.m. to complete it.

02.11.11

I started packing and cleaning the kitchen before beginning our journey. We planned this trip weeks ago to celebrate the end of my hectic schedule and hubby's birthday. Hubby wasn't busy earlier but later he has tender submission to rush for but adamant to continue with the trip anyway. We still has not decided to go via the Simpang Pulai route or Tapah. At Ladang Bikam, I took the wheel and thank God for that as I've been going below 120 and there's a police road block near Tapah. Earlier hubby often reached 140km/hr. Since I was on the wheel, I decided to try Tapah route. I can control my motion sickness when I'm the driver. We reached the hotel at about lunch time and were told they'd be ready in another hour so we decided to go out for lunch. We couldn't find a decent stall nearby that we have to settle for burgers.

When we opened the room door, this is Equatorial? Really? Berjaya... really??? Renovation work still going on outside. The next room is undergoing furbishing with the drilling and what not. Our room is the unfurbished one, with cold room floors and unappetizing looking toilet and hard as plank bed. Seriously, the hardest bed I've been on. Floors are hard. But this is hotel bed mind you. Hubby said maybe the hard bed can help him prepare his tender documents better. After a short rest and charging hubby's handphone, we went out for a walk. I bought t-shirts and souvenirs and strawberries and ogle at all the goodies planning on what to purchase tomorrow :) Ohh... and I bought bedroom slippers as I really can't walk on that cold floors. After the working hours we heard the renovation workers radio playing some dangdut song and strumming of guitars till very late. They must have stayed at one of the rooms.

We had a great steamboat dinner that night. My treat for hubby's birthday eve. Hubby's sulking though... because jealousy rears its ugly head. Sigh! Later he said something that really makes me smile. "I love 100% of you". Sniffles and sneezes included? I asked. He said he has accepted that a long time ago :) Love you too dear hubby. That's one of the sweetest thing you can ever say to me.

01.11.11

Yesterday, we went to KTN and back. Today, we went to Pandan Indah, Taman Melati, my school and Kelana Jaya before heading home. Phewww... I received the payment today. By about 10 am, I paid all the debts and still owe myself some. Sigh! Anyway, alhamdulillah for the rezeki which I would be worse off without.