I'm still recovering from coughing. It's not completely gone. It's really annoying but hubby kept reminding me there are others suffering from worse illness. Yeah it's true but when I'm having my bouts of coughing till my ribcage hurt, I really prayed for quick total recovery.
I'm still feeling lazy though. Really, really, lazyyy..... I'm still not in the mood to revise lessons for my class, I'm also supposed to prepare a training material... not in the mood yet... I also need to clean the house but my normal cleaning lady is not available this weekend. I booked her too late. Sigh! I wanted to cook but the gas head leaks. We still has not replaced that yet.
My taste bud has not totally improve. There's a tinge of bitterness in plain water. I tried tea to mask the taste but I can still taste a non-tea bitterness. I've been having tomyam soup for few times because I didn't feel any bitterness to it. It's OK to have normal meals but I didn't enjoy drinking water too much. Not good if I want to recover quickly.
There are a few things I must do to make me feel totally cured and normal again like go watch a movie, play bowling, go shopping alone, go on vacation with hubby. Oh yeah.... and go to work too. Sigh! Sigh! Sigh! Right now I feel like a totally spoilt child... so pampered. Can I hide behind the fact that I've never experienced poor health like this before? God willing, I never want to go through that time again. And I should thank God for my 'good' health all this while. Allergies, asthma and sneezes... still better than sick.
OK... I'm still mustering the right mood and energy to study for our mid-term re-test. I still didn't know my exact score since I didn't come to class last Sun but a call to my prof said I did quite OK. Thank God for that. He said it's optional for me to take but if everyone else is taking it to improve their grades, I might as well do the same. The re-test is necessary since quite a number of us did not do well at all. I also need to do a presentation for my other class. Which reminds me that I lost my Microsoft Office license when I reset my laptop to factory setting. Arrgghhh!!!! I called Dell and they said they didn't keep the license key.
I got blue screens several times today. Upon checking, my laptop model is not fully compatible with Windows 7. Hubby's all out for XP. If I still got blue screen and other problems, than only I need new laptop. But... having to go through the installation all over again??? I need to resolve this once and for all. Now, I have to find the right time to do it.
Sunflower gives the connotation of cheerfulness, bright, jolly, merry... you get the idea! However, if any content in this blog didn't fit the cheerfulness implied by its name, look at it this way... I'm putting down all the wretchedness, gloom, melancholy feeling in here so I can continue living up to the expectation of making the association to the sunflower.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
This Week's Event for Future References
I have Tue-Thu training.
Started having sore throat on Tue. No coughing or flu... just sore throat.
Get's worse on Wed so went to clinic Wed nite. Started coughing and asthma. Also feeling feverish. Given neb and a plastic bag full of medication: cough medicine, gargle solution, antibiotics, something to clear the phlegm, pill for asthma and something for the sore throat.
Thu, my participants said I sounded better. I hesitated a bit when I wanted to take the antibiotics. I could get allergy reactions and Thu class would be a disaster. I took them anyway and pray for the best. Thu class ended up a near disaster anyway coz my laptop crashed. Refused to boot up. Thank God someone from office has a laptop I can borrow. But he has to make a u-turn to office and get his laptop. I really appreciate it.
Thu evening, I started to feel a familiar sensation. An allergic reaction is forming. Only after 3 times taking the antibiotics. At the end of class, I started feeling nauseous. My tummy felt like it's having a major gastric problem. When I reached home, I dozed off for a while. Just for about half an hour when I woke up feeling my eyes swollen. Rushed to the same clinic. Gotten neb and pred injection. Felt much better afterwards. Hubby's not around tonight.
Woke up at 3 badly wheezing. Toss and turn and pour dollops of ginger lotion on chest. Doesn't seem to work. Drag myself to the car at 4 a.m. When to the same clinic but it was closed. Oh oh... not 24 hours. So drove off to the hospital. At this hour, I hope there's a parking spot. Given neb and more medication since I register temperature at 39.5. They were discussing about what to give me since I'm allergic to so many medications. I hope no more allregic reactions after this.
Return home at almost 6 a.m. For breakfast, couldn't bring myself to eat much. Every bite of bread, have to control myself from vomitting. In the end, just took a few bites. Ordered McD porridge in the afternoon. Managed to eat half of the small pack and took the medicines given by hospital. Dozed off for a while and woke up with swollen eyes again. Sigh! Dragged myself to the car at 2p.m. and prayed I could get a parking spot since most would have not returned from Friday prayers yet. Managed to park at the same spot when I came at 4 this morning. Thank God for tender mercies.
This time, after initial check up, I was brought to a bed and given neb. So many people... nurses, attendant, doctors, asking me what happened. So difficult to explain in between wheezing and plastic covering my nose and mouth. My hearing doesn't work properly too. I heard as if the sound is in a cave. When the nurse asked me to move to the side, I turned my body. All this while, when I went to the clinic for allergic reaction, the doctor will jab the butt. Not this time though. They wanted to put me on drip. Apprently my BP was very low. This is my first experience going through something like this. Alhamdulillah I have never been warded my whole life. The earliest I could remember was when I had a fever in primary school. The government clinic put me under observation. I just lie in bed with my parents hovering around me and all felt a sense of relief after a few hours my temperature cooled down. When I had my miscarriage, almost warded too but in the end it was cancelled.
This time, I was given 3 doses of neb and in between they did a heart test, urine test to check if I'm pregnant cause they wanted to take X-Ray, blood samples taken from my other hand. Ouch!!! I was wheeled to the toilet on a wheelchair. I was wheeled to the X-Ray room on my bed. The nurse is very helpful and non-intrusive. She helped me take off my jewelleries and undress. Helped me to dress again after the X-Ray since my left arm is attached to the drip bottle. Two doctors came to ask about my allergies. My allergy card is full with more names. Please pray I don't have to undergo any surgery since I can't take most painkillers and antibiotics.
Hubby returned with the whole clan. Meriah sikit and I did feel a lot better. But that night I tossed and turned till about 3 because of coughing. Despite dose and dose of medication, this time sleep is really a luxury. They left Sat afternoon. I wish they could stay till Sun morning but I'm sure they have other things to take care off.
Left alone, I used iPod hubby gave me to find info on how to restore my laptop to factory setting. Nothing else seems to work. This is the last resort. Hubby helped transfer my latest file to his external hard disk already. I remember I've made backup as well ever since my laptop started to act funny. Probably about a month ago but I wasn't sure of the exact date. Without another laptop, I can't check content of my external hard disk. Thanks for the iPod abang. That is my lifeline to email, FB and internet since my laptop crashed on Thu.
I'm going to install only the important applications. After I did my Windows Update, remove McAfee and install AVG, my laptop shutdown unexpectedly again. Duh! I ran AVG PC Tuneup hoping it would fix whatever errors causing it to shutdown unexpectedly. Hubby already cursed my OS :) Say NO to Vista! In between coughing and holding up my bruised ribcage and diaphragm, I installed all the application I need one by one. After every successful installation, I ran the AVG PC Tuneup. And everytime it found errors. But so far no more unexplained shutdown. I can use the AVG PC Tuneup for free only for 24 hours.
This cough is really killing me. I woke up like every hour doubling up in pain everytime I coughed. At first, I thought not wanting to take the cough syrup. Seems like I excreted more phlegm after taking it. But without the cough syrup, the phlegm seems to be playing in my chest, can't get out causing me to cough even more. So cough syrup it is.
I'm supposed to go to class today. I have to give a presentation worth 30% of my course marks. But I don't think I can stand the coughing and wheezing. It'll be a vey long day. I'm currently blogging while moaning and groaning everytime I coughed. Might as well do something useful since I can't sleep.
Started having sore throat on Tue. No coughing or flu... just sore throat.
Get's worse on Wed so went to clinic Wed nite. Started coughing and asthma. Also feeling feverish. Given neb and a plastic bag full of medication: cough medicine, gargle solution, antibiotics, something to clear the phlegm, pill for asthma and something for the sore throat.
Thu, my participants said I sounded better. I hesitated a bit when I wanted to take the antibiotics. I could get allergy reactions and Thu class would be a disaster. I took them anyway and pray for the best. Thu class ended up a near disaster anyway coz my laptop crashed. Refused to boot up. Thank God someone from office has a laptop I can borrow. But he has to make a u-turn to office and get his laptop. I really appreciate it.
Thu evening, I started to feel a familiar sensation. An allergic reaction is forming. Only after 3 times taking the antibiotics. At the end of class, I started feeling nauseous. My tummy felt like it's having a major gastric problem. When I reached home, I dozed off for a while. Just for about half an hour when I woke up feeling my eyes swollen. Rushed to the same clinic. Gotten neb and pred injection. Felt much better afterwards. Hubby's not around tonight.
Woke up at 3 badly wheezing. Toss and turn and pour dollops of ginger lotion on chest. Doesn't seem to work. Drag myself to the car at 4 a.m. When to the same clinic but it was closed. Oh oh... not 24 hours. So drove off to the hospital. At this hour, I hope there's a parking spot. Given neb and more medication since I register temperature at 39.5. They were discussing about what to give me since I'm allergic to so many medications. I hope no more allregic reactions after this.
Return home at almost 6 a.m. For breakfast, couldn't bring myself to eat much. Every bite of bread, have to control myself from vomitting. In the end, just took a few bites. Ordered McD porridge in the afternoon. Managed to eat half of the small pack and took the medicines given by hospital. Dozed off for a while and woke up with swollen eyes again. Sigh! Dragged myself to the car at 2p.m. and prayed I could get a parking spot since most would have not returned from Friday prayers yet. Managed to park at the same spot when I came at 4 this morning. Thank God for tender mercies.
This time, after initial check up, I was brought to a bed and given neb. So many people... nurses, attendant, doctors, asking me what happened. So difficult to explain in between wheezing and plastic covering my nose and mouth. My hearing doesn't work properly too. I heard as if the sound is in a cave. When the nurse asked me to move to the side, I turned my body. All this while, when I went to the clinic for allergic reaction, the doctor will jab the butt. Not this time though. They wanted to put me on drip. Apprently my BP was very low. This is my first experience going through something like this. Alhamdulillah I have never been warded my whole life. The earliest I could remember was when I had a fever in primary school. The government clinic put me under observation. I just lie in bed with my parents hovering around me and all felt a sense of relief after a few hours my temperature cooled down. When I had my miscarriage, almost warded too but in the end it was cancelled.
This time, I was given 3 doses of neb and in between they did a heart test, urine test to check if I'm pregnant cause they wanted to take X-Ray, blood samples taken from my other hand. Ouch!!! I was wheeled to the toilet on a wheelchair. I was wheeled to the X-Ray room on my bed. The nurse is very helpful and non-intrusive. She helped me take off my jewelleries and undress. Helped me to dress again after the X-Ray since my left arm is attached to the drip bottle. Two doctors came to ask about my allergies. My allergy card is full with more names. Please pray I don't have to undergo any surgery since I can't take most painkillers and antibiotics.
Hubby returned with the whole clan. Meriah sikit and I did feel a lot better. But that night I tossed and turned till about 3 because of coughing. Despite dose and dose of medication, this time sleep is really a luxury. They left Sat afternoon. I wish they could stay till Sun morning but I'm sure they have other things to take care off.
Left alone, I used iPod hubby gave me to find info on how to restore my laptop to factory setting. Nothing else seems to work. This is the last resort. Hubby helped transfer my latest file to his external hard disk already. I remember I've made backup as well ever since my laptop started to act funny. Probably about a month ago but I wasn't sure of the exact date. Without another laptop, I can't check content of my external hard disk. Thanks for the iPod abang. That is my lifeline to email, FB and internet since my laptop crashed on Thu.
I'm going to install only the important applications. After I did my Windows Update, remove McAfee and install AVG, my laptop shutdown unexpectedly again. Duh! I ran AVG PC Tuneup hoping it would fix whatever errors causing it to shutdown unexpectedly. Hubby already cursed my OS :) Say NO to Vista! In between coughing and holding up my bruised ribcage and diaphragm, I installed all the application I need one by one. After every successful installation, I ran the AVG PC Tuneup. And everytime it found errors. But so far no more unexplained shutdown. I can use the AVG PC Tuneup for free only for 24 hours.
This cough is really killing me. I woke up like every hour doubling up in pain everytime I coughed. At first, I thought not wanting to take the cough syrup. Seems like I excreted more phlegm after taking it. But without the cough syrup, the phlegm seems to be playing in my chest, can't get out causing me to cough even more. So cough syrup it is.
I'm supposed to go to class today. I have to give a presentation worth 30% of my course marks. But I don't think I can stand the coughing and wheezing. It'll be a vey long day. I'm currently blogging while moaning and groaning everytime I coughed. Might as well do something useful since I can't sleep.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Support and Sacrifice
Kejayaan memerlukan pengorbanan dan pengorbanan itu bukanlah sesuatu yang mudah untuk dilakukan. Kejayaan yang dimaksudkan termasuklah kejayaan dalam kerjaya, pelajaran dan keluarga. Sebelum ini bila melihat orang lain bercerita pasal kejayaan dan pengorbanan, tak terbayang bagaimana susah untuk mengharunginya. Bila diri sendiri yang melalui, barulah terasa akan kesusahannya. Belum lagi sampai tahap kejayaan... masih dalam proses mengharungi pahit-getirnya.
Bila ini semua sudah berlalu, mungkin aku boleh menoleh ke belakang dan mengenang semua ini sebagai satu lembaran dalam sejarah hidup :)
Aku bukanlah seseorang yang suka mengadu-adu walaupun sekadar untuk meluahkan masalah di dalam hati. Apatah lagi jika ia perkara yang aku rasa sangat sensitif. Lebih baik ditelan saja kerana mungkin ia lebih baik. I'm a very private person. Nukilan ni, sekadar berkongsi setakat yang mampu diadu.
Semenjak-dua menjak ni, terasa nak menulis blog dalam bahasa pulak. Mungkin sebab banyak training pun kena conduct dalam bahasa. Bolehlah berlatih berbahasa ibunda formal pulak. Hmmmm.... apalah pulak yang merapu malam2 ni kan. Bila ada masa nanti, akan dipostkan entry pasal deadline2 yang banyak tu.
Bila ini semua sudah berlalu, mungkin aku boleh menoleh ke belakang dan mengenang semua ini sebagai satu lembaran dalam sejarah hidup :)
Aku bukanlah seseorang yang suka mengadu-adu walaupun sekadar untuk meluahkan masalah di dalam hati. Apatah lagi jika ia perkara yang aku rasa sangat sensitif. Lebih baik ditelan saja kerana mungkin ia lebih baik. I'm a very private person. Nukilan ni, sekadar berkongsi setakat yang mampu diadu.
Semenjak-dua menjak ni, terasa nak menulis blog dalam bahasa pulak. Mungkin sebab banyak training pun kena conduct dalam bahasa. Bolehlah berlatih berbahasa ibunda formal pulak. Hmmmm.... apalah pulak yang merapu malam2 ni kan. Bila ada masa nanti, akan dipostkan entry pasal deadline2 yang banyak tu.
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