Good News v.s. Bad News

Good news: I break the board! I'm the first trainer to break the board!

We have a breaking board session in one of our training today and there was a special trainer's session afterwards. All our male trainers can't break the board. It was really a surprise after watching petite, very feminine participants breaking the board without breaking a single sweat. So size does not matter. It's whats in our mind that counts. One of us jokingly said all trainers can't go back because we can't break the board. Even jokes like that can feed negative input into our mind.

I may not be affected by that thought so much because of two reasons:-

1) Give any task to me and I'll think I can do it until I've done it and really know I can't at that moment. Even then, it will be due to some skills or knowledge that I have not acquired yet.

2) If people say I can't do it, I will prove to them that I can.

I have the video to prove it but I don't want to put it up because I can't clip other trainer's part in it. I don't want someone who knew them watch it and lead them to my blog. Habis lah like that. So no video for now until I figure out how to clip mp4 files.

Another female trainer managed to break the board and later, a male trainer joined us because he has his own session earlier and he did not hear the joke, he managed to break the board and save the male trainer's pride a little bit hehehe...

Bad news: I believe in the system. We have done all we can to fulfill the system's requirement. But the system failed us. I'm very disappointed. They did not even take the feelings of the people's involve into consideration. They must have not or the result will not be such a disappointment. We will get through this somehow. There must be other ways. There's always ways to beat the system or go around it. And they wonder why people don't want to go through the right channel.

My Dream Wheels

Murano website : Wikipedia Info


Nissan website : Wikipedia Info


Fortuner website : Wikipedia Info


BMW X5 website : Wikipedia Info


Lexus RX350 website : Wikipedia Info
No sedan for me please. My dream wheels have that similar look which means to choose one, I would have to look at every little detail. Hmmm... it is probably a good thing I don't have to do that now :)

Reality check... my new car would be.....

- practical
- fuel efficient
- affordable
- striking red
- as cute as the owner ;)

Crystal Ball Analysis

"If you don’t know where you’re going, any road will lead you there."
Do you create your future or do you let fate dictate your life? The more I think about it, the more I wonder how can I do things differently so I can create my future. All these while, I belief I have chosen the best option considering the situation I was in or maybe I have chosen the path of least resistance given the circumstances.

Nature will normally choose the easiest path. Water on a hill will find the easiest way to flow down creating a trail that it will keep on following later on; animals can travel hundreds of miles to breed at a specific location that their forefathers have chosen; and our brain will choose the belief that have been programmed in our mind so many years ago, sometimes not open to new ideas.

That is why I am where I am right now looking into the fuzzy crystal ball trying to figure out the path less travel that's worth taking. Going beyond our comfort zone is not easy or anyone would have done it. That thought gives me some consolation although I would love to start somewhere, anywhere, as soon as possible. At the moment, I still feel like I'm stuck in a rut and that did not do anything for my self-esteem and confidence. I know I can do more than what I'm doing right now.

"You know more than you think you know,
just as you know less than you want to know."
There is however one part of my life where I have chosen the less trodden path. I think when it comes to love; many people have chosen to follow their heart even though the journey ahead seems daunting. That's how powerful love is isn't it? It is a relatively easy decision to make as compared to the other decisions in my life. That just proves how much love and passion for someone or something can push us forward. That also proves I need the same intensity of love and passion to create my future and not let fate or destiny take over.

Really big task ahead...

Spa & Adventure Getaway

I have not looked into the crystal ball yet. I needed a break so off I went for a spa & adventure getaway. Just what I needed to recharge and rejuvenate.



Summary of activities:

Thursday
- Fetch Ben at KL Central at 10 am
- Jem along the higway. Aren't they supposed to go back yesterday??
- Every R&R was packed... finally stop at Bukit Gantang for a late lunch.
- Parking after Penang tol... the car was not moving it looked like a big and haphazard parking place!
- Managed to reach the jetty at 4.30 to catch the ferry. Otherwise have to wait for 6.30 trip.
- Finally reached the resort, took a bath and went for a walk.
- Decided to have an early dinner. The meal was just so-so but I'm not fussy.
- Went for a walk
- Intent to read but can't keep my eyes open past the preface of the book so ZZzzzzz...

Friday
- Buffet breakfast
- We walked at the suspension bridge as many times as we like because no one else was around.
- Bragged to Ben I don't have to hold to walk on the bridge hehehe...
- Decided to go for jungle trekking before flying fox activity
- Followed the bicycle trail until the other side of the island. Followed jungle trail hoping it can lead to the resort side but met with a dead end.
- Return the way we came and continue doing flying fox. My first flying fox was during primary school scout camping trip. This was the second and it was more fun. Higher and longer route.
- Missed the lion dance at the resort. Shopping at the only convenience store at the resort. Bought nice looking blue pareo and red batik short.
- Light picnic under the tree.
- Take a bath and rest.
- Went to the reading room to do some reading while waiting for our 5 o'clock spa session.
- Our spa only started at about 5.30. The rejuvenating Balinese spa was heavenly. Just the way I like it.
- Buffet dinner.
- Return to our room to read but the activity of the day, plus the relaxing spa and good dinner makes us sleepier. Ben slept earlier with a request for me to wake her up for a movie on TV. I did some reading, wake her up and went to sleep. Woke up at about 3:00 a.m. and couldn't sleep until past 4:00 a.m. Did some reading and missing cik abang.

Saturday
- Packing
- Buffet breakfast
- Walk around the resort taking photos while Ben went back to the room to pack and read. I went up to the suspension bridge again to take more photos.
- We checked out to catch the 11:45 ferry
- Went to Kulim to look for Sg. Sedim Canopy Walk. It was a long drive, we drove on and on, past through palm oil estate, villages, small road, untarred road... Ben gave up and slept in the car. It was about 60km from the Kulim petronas station.
- The canopy walk would've been better if we get there in the morning... I can take better photos with better light but it was quite impressive even under the harsh afternoon sun.
- Reached Juru at 6:30 p.m for our dinner. The bihun sup and laksa was not good at all.
- Continued our journey back and the highway was congested but we can still go at about 80kmph.
- Stopped at Ulu Bernam for petrol, cars was lining up for fuel. I have to wait as I don't think my petrol can last until we reach KL. Otherwise I would have to exit at Tg. Malim.
- After sending Ben, finally reached home at 11:40 p.m.

Sunday
- Laundry day
- Resting day

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

I'm going for a holiday tomorrow. Test sending blog entry via MMS.

GONG XI FA CAI!

Enjoy your holiday & drive safely.*Edited via blogger*

Lucky I tested the MMS to blog output now while I still have internet access. The long Celcom message accompanying the MMS email also displayed my mobile number. Yikes! Thank God it did not got broadcast-ed without me knowing. So, no blogging through MMS.

I'm A Nice Girl

I'm a nice girl. The quiz below proved it hahaha... And it has even proven I've chosen the correct blog name. So I'm a nice girl even if you don't think so. Hah!

I am a Sunflower What Flower Are You?

I'm actually trying to convince myself :( Things are not very good at the office all due to my candidness. People don't like to hear the truth, they may talk, joke, laugh about someone behind their back (including the boss) but projected an angelic image in front of the same someone. It makes me want to puke.

Office politics be damned I'll always voice out and discuss things out openly. Now someone who claims to be my best friend is giving me the cold shoulder. Personally, it did not affect me so much because I'm quite neutral towards my colleagues. I have a good working relationship with everyone or so I thought but it has never reached the stage of becoming best friends. She's the one who claims I'm her best friend in her Facebook. And now the boss probably thinks I'm difficult to handle too. I'm worried about the effect it would have on future working arrangements. Work would be a challenge without cooperation. I'll have to look at the situation in this 1-2 weeks and see how things are going to be. In the meantime, I better take a look inside the crystal ball and see what my future holds for me.

I can continue working and get paid if I want to but I can't stand the thought that I have to roll my eyes so often or hold my stomach from getting upset when anybody talk behind someone's back. There are only 15 people in our unit and almost everybody talked about everybody behind their back. It is not a healthy culture. Very Asian and very unIslamic. That is one of the reason why I can't get close to anyone at the office because who knows what they might be saying behind my back. If I can't beat 'em, join 'em or I can take a different path altogether. We always have a choice. This might be the right time for me to seriously consider AND DO what's been on my mind for quite some time. Now, where's that crystal ball of mine again? (Crystal ball: next post!)