Khabar Terkini

Sangat2 tak produktif for the past few days. Either too tired or pening or lower abdominal pain or all of the above. Since jerebu, mula batuk2 sikit and start rasa sakit bawah perut. Bila puasa OK sikit bab pening and nausea tu tapi bila tak puasa lapar sikit jer rasa nak muntah.

Kena kuatkan semangat untuk bergerak time pening2 and lembik ni. I can still eat and that is a good thing. Nausea only cause urge to throw up without really purging everything I've eaten. I'm lucky in that area so far. Tapi bila urge tu datang, penat rasanya. Not to mention it will push lower abdomen so risau juga bila ada painful uterus

Sangat2 tak berminat untuk memasak sebab takder idea. Bila google for ideas ada bahan2 yang takder. Contohnya ada udang. Tapi nak masak lemak dengan nenas, nenas takder pulak and tak larat ke pasar. Beli lauk siap senang. Semalam beli 3 lauk baru $10. Kadang-kadang lebih sikit bergantung pada apa yang diambil.

Ada training sehari 2hb nanti. Hopefully things run smoothly.  Lepas tu memang kena take a break and see how thing goes. Kalau larat and pregnancy OK boleh berlasak sikit, I would love to conduct more training. Bolehlah create buffer banyak sikit. Right now outstanding payments boleh bertahan for 5 months but I definitely need more sampai berpantang nanti without having to dig into emergency and savings stash. So hopefully I'll be well enough to conduct few more local training. I'd rather not do outstation training right now.

Susu dah habis. No energy untuk keluar sekarang. I seem to have more energy dalam pukul 4 ke atas. Time for rest now. Rasa lapar and nausea again.

Cervical Cerclage

Cervical cerclage

Found out that cervical cerclage as shown in picture above may fail. Another type is called abdominal cerclage and here's a story of someone's experience going through it.

Status unknown....

Yogurt drink, air limau, asam, limau... anything sour.

Sometimes no appetite... but most days I do.

Spotting still going on. Some days more than others. Especially when I have training that day.

I have the urge to purge... I'm very sensitive to smell these days. Sometimes the urge just came without any trigger though. No real purging so I can probably live with that for now.

I still didn't know my fate. Ignorance is bliss?

Kerastangan

Setelah lama memendam keinginan, berjaya ke Nilai 3 few weeks ago mencari kain untuk dijadikan bahan ujikaji. It was a very hot afternoon and I don't plan to spend too much time there. So the moment I saw cheap fabric with nice design,  I took it. I bought some cheap cotton fabric that cost RM4/meter, RM5/meter and RM13/meter for a curtain fabric. I also bought few things like zippers, batting and interfacing at a shop in Nilai.

First try... a zippered pouch with front pocket that uses velcro.

The outcome of my first attempt was not bad. Of course I could do better. Have to take a break for a while because I have training and few days rest. Nak buat kerastangan mesti betul2 relax and in the mood.

Second attempt with the cheap cotton. 

 I love the green color and the pattern. I use green polka dot material for the lining. Because the fabric is very thin, I use interfacing on both internal and external fabric.

Third attempt with curtain fabric

I use bias tape on the pocket. This tote has single external pocket and two internal pocket. Must make external pocket becomes two because it is not very secure right now. Not very satisfied with the outcome. I use French seam because there is no serging on the fabric but it makes the fabric became too thick at some area.

Lesson learnt:
- Buy medium weight fabric.
- 1 meter fabric is normally enough since I like variety.
- Stock on plain cotton fabric for lining.

Few days break due to training and will see what mood and sewing ideas struck me after that.

Government or Private Hospital?

Government: Puan boleh balik. Teruskan makan ubat yang ada. Kalau teruk, baru datang. *after ages waiting at emergency yang bukan macam emergency pun*

The reason I chose private last time. Terus bagi injection.

But... any complications, private pass to government.  Sigh!

5th Try... Not?!?!

Yesterday morning, felt energetic. Even went to Nilai 3 to look for fabric for my new hobby, bag making.

Last night, a bout of sneezes that got me worried. A little spotting.

Every time I wipe after a bathroom visit, a tiny spot on the tissue but that's it.

This morning I noticed no more breast pain :(

Just chuck it as late period?

Too Fast and Too Slow

Time seems to run too fast and too slow at the same time. Too fast that I have to leave for my outstation trip soon. Actually, not in a few more days but time just feels passing by too fast. However, too slow that I just wish 9 months flew by like a lightning.

I hope I'll be able to conduct my scheduled training till early July because after that will be fasting month. Normally not many training is organised during fasting month. Then will be Raya and I'm not sure how my health will be. Even if I'm capable of conducting training, I don't think I'll accept outstation offers. Last year the bulk of my income is towards the end of the year and outstation training. I wish I can do enough local training so I can have more buffer.

Need to be very careful with my expenses from now on especially if I'm unable to conduct training after Raya. Baby is due in February, plus confinement months.... Allah will provide rezeki for baby but that doesn't mean ummi can just 'goyang kaki' right!
May I have the strength to make all the necessary preparation.

Pasta Ala Trapanese

This past few days, I'm always hungry due to no appetite. I'll eat something a little bit to stop hunger and then I can't swallow the food anymore. This morning's fried rice was eaten little by little till around 5 p.m. just now. Not enough to stave off hunger but that's all I can manage. I enjoy watching cook show though. So in David Rocco's show, he made this pasta with fried potato and eggplant. It looks interesting and appetizing. Since I have most of the ingredients at home, quickly go into the kitchen to make it.

I blend some tomato with garlic and a pinch of salt. I don't have basil leave though. Put in some EVOO and leave aside. Boil the spaghetti and fry potato like french fries and diced eggplant in EVOO as well. After frying, pour some salt on top. Once spaghetti is boiled, toss the water and pour spaghetti into container with tomato paste. I sliced some cili padi to give some heat to the spaghetti. Then add the fried potato and eggplant. David Rocco sliced some cheese on top of the spaghetti. I don't have cheese in stock. It still tastes great to me. I finished the whole bowl. The above picture is only taken once there were only 2 spoonfuls left. Good thing I remember to take some pic. This is the first time I quickly make the food I just watched on TV.  Alhamdulillah I'm full now.

5th Try

This morning's surprise

I thought last weekend my menses started but it happens to be just spotting. With all the physical changes I'm experiencing, I decided to give HPT a try. Glad I did because if I waited till 6 weeks... I normally don't have good luck at 6 weeks. At least this time, I can take preventive measures. Original plan of going to Nilai 3 has to be scrapped for hospital visit. I don't have any appointment and referral letter of course but since the hospital has been scheduling pre-pregnancy appointments for me before, I decided to try my luck. I found a good parking spot. Normally it is almost impossible to find a parking spot at the hospital.

I approached a nurse, explained my situation and they asked me to wait while they ask the doctor about my situation. Then my friend who's a gynae there saw me and took my card. Things seemed to work smoothly this morning. There were not many people at all. I later found out there was no scheduled appointments on Friday. At 5 weeks based on first day of LMP, nothing much can be seen during the scan but we saw baby of course. Prescribed Duphaston that has helped my pregnancy go beyond 6 weeks before, and preventing bleeding, I felt much better.

On my way back, stopped to buy Anmum, soy milk, yakult and some groceries. I shall not worry about my weight now. I must eat healthily while I can. I don't really have much appetite this few days. I can eat but the thought of eating and thinking what to eat isn't appealing at all. I hope I will not be throwing up so bad like last time. Have to wait till 8th weeks to find out if it'll happen or whether I'll be OK. I really hope I'll be OK because I have training scheduled every week till early July i.e. my 9th week. Last time doctors suggest they do a procedure to tie uterus opening to prevent baby from aborting early around 13 weeks of pregnancy. My 13th weeks is a week before Aidilfitri. We'll see how things goes and what are the doctor's advice.

My darling boy Adib asyik cakap dia abang Adib. Hopefully, he'll get a baby sister or brother insyaAllah.  If pregnancy goes full term, baby will be around early next year. I'm having mixed feeling with this surprise. I thought maybe no rezeki for us already. I'll continue feeling apprehensive till I can see baby's heartbeat. Till then, do whatever possible on our side to take the best care of my pregnancy. The rest, only Allah knows. My prayers that this time, we will have a good news.

لاحول ولا قوة إلا بالله العلي العظيم

 There is no power and no strength, save with Allah, the High, the Great

Tioman Trip 2013

This Tioman trip is quite different than my previous 3 trips. For one, we started our journey at 5 a.m. instead of late at night since the ferry only departs at 9 a.m. which means we have to be there by 8. We depart from MLK, hubby and I reached MLK on Monday around 4 pm. There were not that many people as compared to all the previous time I went to Tioman. Despite the school holiday, it being on Tuesday instead of weekend probably makes the difference. The journey was also very fast since we reached Tioman in less than 3 hours. I still remember our 5-hours journey to Salang last time. The first incident during the trip was the lost luggage incident. We disembarked at Tekek but one of our luggage was not on the ferry. Thankfully the captain promised to look for it on his way back to Mersing and he found it left at the first stop i.e. Genting jetty. We got the news at 1 p.m. but have to wait till about 6 to get it since he has to follow the ferry schedule.

The ferry we're on

Second day were island hopping time. We waited for quite a bit since the tide is low but started our journey around 9 am. First stop is the beach near Batu Malang with monitor lizards around. We didn't stay long as there were not much to see under the water. Then we went very near to Batu Malang and the view was breathtaking. We have dived here before. Makes me want to dive here again but diving is not in our itinerary this time. We spent quite some time here and I got tired swimming trying to go around the big rock. By the time everybody were on board, I was still paddling in the water. Energy level almost zero that hubby threw rope at me and he pulled me near the boat.

Third stop is at Salang for early lunch and much needed bathroom break and rest. Then off to Monkey Bay with white sand underwater sans a single coral, followed by Marine Park.

Some fish at the Marine Park

Steam fish, BBQ, sweet sour... nyummm... looks delicious.

Last stop was Rengis which I remember for its beautiful coral and colorful fishes but the current was very strong. Even the boys who are strong swimmer said so. I wanted to just be in the water near the platform and hold on to the rope but the moment I was in the water, all attempt to get nearer to the platform and hold on to the rope failed and I got swept away further and further from the platform and our boat. Reached hubby and he tried pulling my vest to the platform but got tired doing so. All ideas of underwater photography disappeared from my mind. The water was very high too. Last time I remember sometimes my feet can touch the coral. But this time, it looked very deep. The coral seemed far. So hubby and I hold on to a buoy till out boat came to the rescue. We reached the beach and I immediately return to our chalet to take a bath and rest while the rest went to the pool. I have no more energy left. Later, I went to one of the beach chair to relax till dinner time. 

The beach nearest to our chalet and my favorite spot somewhere there.

Third day was relaxing day while hubby and the big boys went kayaking to Rengis island. This time the current wasn't as strong as yesterday so they managed to take some nice pics. Still deep though. Sis and the lil boys played at the pool. I was all by myself lounging under the shade while the mat salleh and minah salleh stayed under the sun getting baked, looking like lobster already. Hubby disappeared around our early dinner time and the Azan Maghrib. I went looking for him at the beach and saw him at the beach chair looking at the almost non-existent sunset and no stars either. We waited and chit chat for a while till the light totally disappears from the sky before returning to the chalet and I took my dinner. Hubby was still full from late lunch so he took a late dinner instead

He ate instant noodle, bread and biscuits for lunch because by the time sis and I reached the place where we normally eat at 2.30, not much food choice available and they only started cooking again at 3pm. So we ordered and I ate some rice with chicken curry. By this time hubby already reached the chalet from kayaking with the boys and famished.

Fourth day, packed first so it'll be easier to check out later. Spend time at the pool for a while and then the beach. We checked out after 1 p.m. and the receptionist said the bus to Tekek just left about 10 minutes ago. Sigh! So we have to wait for the 3 pm. bus and ate biscuit for lunch. By the time we reached Tekek, nothing much were available at the stalls either. I bought fried rice while the rest have burgers. We have just enough time for prayers after meal and then waited for the ferry that was supposed to be there by 4.30 but reached the jetty at 5 p.m.

At Mersing, quickly went to the washroom and for $0.30 the toilet were very clean as compared to Tekek which I also paid $0.30. A quick shopping, nothing really new and outstanding to buy though coz we've been here a few times. Bought myself and hubby a t-shirt. Heard the Azan and quickly performed our jamak prayer. We stopped at our normal place for dinner and reached MLK by midnight. So that sums up our journey this time.

For my record, on a 4d3n journey I can probably survive wearing the blouse and pants on my coming journey, swimming attire plus two more sets of clothes. I can wash the clothes on my first day and wear it on our return trip with no problem. But I brought extra clothes. I have a pants and tudung that I didn't wear and a blouse that I can live without but wear it since it's already packed. I also wore a fresh blouse and tudung for return journey. I have too many clothes for MLK stay too. I have plans but too tired to go about and just relax. Hence, not required to change often. Just day clothes and kaftan for the night. I'm preparing for eventualities of day clothes, night clothes, nighties for 2 days but ended up wearing day clothes and nighties only. Both nights I fell asleep at 10 pm.

We reached home Monday morning and hubby immediately went to work. I can stay home and relax this week, preparing material for next week training.