Frangipani... and other thoughts...

Yesterday, we bought a frangipani tree to plant near the spot where baby is buried. May it blossom and forever remind us of our little one, Baby Aina. The name we have reserved for quite some time for our baby. My thoughts is always with you dear baby.

Harapan hati dalam bayangan,
Hanya doa iringan kami;
Pohon kemboja sebagai kenangan,
Tanda ingatan ayah dan ummi.

Post-partum bleeding has stopped after 3 weeks. Earlier in the morning, I called another masseuse that I got her number from the internet, for a massage and tungku session at home. My body really feels achy all over since our Changlun trip. The massage was painful, as expected... I can still feel swollen parts all over my body. I cringed even when hubby just rubs ginger lotion on me just now.

Also yesterday, our stove didn't work. I thought I need new gas. But something is still wrong somewhere. Today I called the shop where we bought the cooker hood and stove, they suggested we checked the gas head, then wash the ring and finally scrub the safety pin with cloth. We did, to no avail. We called them again and they came warning us they will charge if it is not due to the stove problem, use sand paper on the safety pin and charge us $60. Hmmpphhh... cekik darah betul.

We already changed our water heater in the master bathroom twice.The last time, the technician mentioned that it didn't work due to low water pressure. Today I Googled about water heater and low water pressure. It seems we need to do something about the water pressure as there is a number of forum where water pressure is the problem. Won't help changing the water heater. Called our renovation contractor and they came without much hassle to have a look. That is what I called service.

Emosi agak terganggu harini. Stress ke? Geram kena bayar $60 ke? Sampai keluar air mata. Hubby gelakkan pulak. Memang sendiri pun tak faham and tak expect sampai keluar air mata. Entah lah... rasa emosi penat. Mungkin dah boring tahap gaban duduk di rumah. Stress semalam dapat call to complete our practical report by March? Seriously I don't know. Hubby suggested we go jogging in the evening. The image of me jogging with socks, tak pelik but berkain batik... that kinda make us laugh.

My tolerance level to pain and emotional situation is quite high. However, there will always be a turning point. The littlest, unimportant, insignificant event could be the trigger that push me to the edge. Nak berhuha-huha pun, energy masih belum recover. Stamina tak cukup since dah berapa bulan kerja nya taking things easy due to so many reason. Another 3 weeks of confinement to go. Anyway, petang tadi dah sleep it off. Hopefully, no more emotional outburst. Terasa petang tadi sejuk sangat, pakai sweater and merengkut atas katil. Tau2 hubby kejutkan dah nak maghrib. Now hubby is watching TV. Masih belum begitu berminat nak menonton apa2 cerita so lepas di sapu losyen halia tadi, bertungku. Sekarang pun masih bertuam sebab tungku elektrik ni lama panasnya. Mungkin bila cerita habis nanti, nak ajak hubby ambil angin di luar sekejap. And take a look at our newly planted frangipani tree.