Musim Itu Datang Lagi

I'm so tired I could fall asleep right now. But if I do that, I'd wake at 2 or 3 am and can't fall asleep again and the next day I'd be like a zombie. It's that time of the year again where training request are at its peak...  in addition, my supervisor will be pushing for our thesis before he go  for his sabbatical leave. Sigh! But I have to go with the flow. No job would let me be on 6 months leave without much financial worries. Hmmm... well... there's a bit of worrying though as my buffer dwindles to 2 months. But I feel blessed nonetheless to be able to afford to do that. And I expect this to continue till before fasting month. Then will be a break for Ramadhan and Raya before the busyness continues in September till end of the year. So, have to be ready mentally and physically.

I missed my family too much this time though. The last time I went back was during BIL and SIL's wedding. I have to postpone my intention twice already. Last weekend was rushing for training materials. I spent five days preparing the materials full time. As in... started staring at my laptop the moment I woke up till I fell asleep at 1 or 2 am. The only break I have was eating time, cook very simple meal or eat leftover food, perform my prayers, water the plants and toilet break. My eyes felt funny when I stop starring at the screen and look at the distance, the greeneries, or just simply break away from staring at the screen. My lecturer also pushed for our practicum report. Thank God he extended the deadline, or else I'd be dead.

I have just completed a training today. It is quite stressful since this is the first time I joined a new organization as their associate trainers. And a milestone for me as a trainer, the 3 materials I prepared were in Malay. All this while, I use English material and deliver in Malay if I have to. Encountered many funny translation in Google translate but too rushed to enjoy a good laugh. One sticked in my mind though... improvise = garu sendiri LOL. Another milestone also for me this year, as I up my rate by 50% hehehe... I couldn't do that to my existing associate company who has given me a break in this area. Besides, I know how much they are getting most of the time and feels my share is quite reasonable. Besides, they are also the one who introduce me to this associate company.

I could start preparing my report tonight.... but we'll see how thing goes. I just want to have a break, a short rest. I was also on the phone with my classmate on the way back. She said she'll focus on the report with 70% marks and less focus on the logbook with so much work but carry only 15%. Good idea my dear friend. That's what I'll do too. The deadline is coming Monday, a week from the initial deadline. But I have 5-days training next week. So by hook or by crook, it has to be completed by this Sunday. So no balik kampung, no meeting with friends and no life again this weekend. So looking forward to next weekend... Ya Allah, semoga panjang umur untuk berjumpa my beloved family.