Life's Like That

Life's like that. At the end of the day, only family and loved ones matter. And if family and loved ones fails us, Allah never will, even if we failed Him gazillion times.

This blog has kept me sane for many years. Only here I can tell what's bottled inside without having to explain my reasons. Readers may judge me but should it matter? They still do not know the whole story, emotion and heartache that I have to go through. So judge, or reserve judgment, whichever way you see fit, AAK (ada aku kisah)?

For things we can control, do things that might help us get the outcome that we want. For things we can't control, nak buat apa susah2, bising2, kalut2. Dah memang beyond control. Only Allah has the power to change it. Covey's 90/10 Principle says 10% of life is made up of what happens to you. 90% of life is decided by how you react. So react according to the outcome that you want. Kalau nak kesudahan yang baik, buat lah baik. Kalau nak kesudahan yang penuh drama macam telenovela tu, buat lah yang sewaktu dengannya.

Baru nak meriah2 with old friends dekat WA, dah kena removed. Probably to make way for some other more important people due to limited no. of members that can be in a group. Duh! Biar betul!!! Sangat2 terkilan tapi takper lah. Mungkin ada yang tak suka with my life story. Mungkin takder apa2 isu pun. Beyond my control... nak hentak2 kaki pun no point so life goes on. Besides, I have my own group so pakai yang itu jer lah.

Yesterday morning hubby said he'll return to MLK after his office's makan2 Raya. I discovered my driving license has expired sometimes early July. To think that I drove to KB with an expired license and the police who stopped me didn't say anything. Didn't he noticed or did he gave chance since I produce my license confidently, without the guilty face. I thought might as well have lunch, buy my asthma medication and check out the blouses at Jusco and visit my friend who just gave birth few days before Raya after going to the post office since vitamin M banyak sangat bila sebut pasal nak keluar jauh2 ni. Kalau dah weekend lagi ramai on the road going to open houses. Alang2 dah keluar, pergi jer lah. Hadiah for my friend pun dah beli.

With regards to the license, government is imposing all license to expire on our birthday. Since my birthday just passed, I thought they will backdate but they put till the following year with an additional RM15 for coming birthday date more than 6 months. So for 2 year renewal I pay RM77 and license will expire in 2015.

Hubby reached home after his office makan2 yesterday and I'm not around. He is not answering my call and not replying to my SMS now. I wouldn't be going anywhere if he said he'll be around after office event. I would have make a u-turn if he picks up my call. Dah bagi phone canggih pun tak nak jawab phone call and SMS. I've exhausted options that is within my control so from within my control dah jadi beyond control... Sorry abang. If only we communicate more effectively.

This morning cuaca mendung semacam. Lagi ler banyak vitamin M. I've kinda make declaration that this year tak nak buat open house coz there is no one to help. My part time helper dulu would come if I fetch her at nearest LRT station and nearest LRT from here is Sg. Besi. That's around half an hour's drive if we're lucky. After the event has to send her to the LRT too. Issyy... jauh juga tu. Kalau nak cari orang lain, tak tau ler dia boleh buat kerja ker tidak and most importantly our trust with things lying around the house. So no open house this year but friends and family are still welcome. Adat zaman sekarang di KL kalau takder open house, jangan harap ler orang datang.

I kinda make declaration too that I would visit friends yang dah lama tak jumpa. Tak perlu lah tunggu open house kan. Tapi dalam cuaca mendung ni, macam best lepak2 di rumah jer updating my schedule and check or update my training material since training will start soon. The thought of Saturday traffic and potential rain dampens the mood nak jalan. Besides, belum ada janji dengan siapa2 lagi. Schedule this weekend is within my control :) So I'll do what seems appropriate dengan masa yang Allah pinjamkan insyaAllah.

Life's like that. Sometimes untung sikit, sometimes rugi sikit. Ada things we can control and ada things we can't. Life goes on...