I help a friend scan his China trip photos quite some time back. I hope he didn't mind I use this one in my blog.
There is no point crying inside hoping people will try to understand us or understand why we became what we are. Most people will just punish or judge because we do not conform to certain standards or expectation.
It hurts but not that much. There’s already a thick protective wall around, preventing the hurt to get too deep. The defense mechanism is not to defend oneself. Let people say or think what they want. It’s not that important anyway. And all the while, it makes one feels better to retreat deeper and deeper into the protective shell. The cocoons that will make you feel safe. As safe as you can hope to be emotionally.
Because when you reach out, you don't think anyone will reach for you. You can only hold on to the cold railing of the banisters, gripping it as hard as you can. When you look up, no pair of eyes will be looking back into yours. Just the vast space of emptiness. When you need to lean on something, you can only find a bark of tree or walls. No shoulders to lean on.
The mask you put on makes you appear strong and untouchable. You are strong and untouchable. But just because you treat life like a movie and you're not in it. And shields will be added to the wall, making it thicker as one move on in their life.
It hurts but not that much. There’s already a thick protective wall around, preventing the hurt to get too deep. The defense mechanism is not to defend oneself. Let people say or think what they want. It’s not that important anyway. And all the while, it makes one feels better to retreat deeper and deeper into the protective shell. The cocoons that will make you feel safe. As safe as you can hope to be emotionally.
Because when you reach out, you don't think anyone will reach for you. You can only hold on to the cold railing of the banisters, gripping it as hard as you can. When you look up, no pair of eyes will be looking back into yours. Just the vast space of emptiness. When you need to lean on something, you can only find a bark of tree or walls. No shoulders to lean on.
The mask you put on makes you appear strong and untouchable. You are strong and untouchable. But just because you treat life like a movie and you're not in it. And shields will be added to the wall, making it thicker as one move on in their life.
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