My Future Is At Stake

Last night I took out drawers full of letters, brochures, files, and laid everything out in front of the TV. While watching America's Next Top Model and What Not To Wear, i sorted out things I can throw, things I must keep and things I think I should keep. I ended up with two bags full of garbage. Before that, I had a huge dinner with my younger brother. I had the huge dinner. He had a normal one :) While waiting for him, I've consumed a plate full of sunflower seed. I kid you not. It's a plate full. I thought of taking photos of it but too lazy.

The above are some of the habits I have when there are too many things on my mind. So many things has happened these past few days that most of the time I got too tired of thinking about it. If I can push it at the back of my mind, I just do it. Unfortunately, one issue can't be pushed to the back of my mind. My future is at stake.

I got a job offer from Bank X. It so happen my youngest brother took a hire purchase from the same bank a few months back and I become the guarantor. I was initially requested to ask my brother to change his guarantor. I don't think that will be too much of a hassle. But then I got another call, this time saying that my brother should refinance at a different bank. After going through all the option with my brother, I just couldn't see how any of it making economic sense. I probably can't accept the offer because of technicalities and guidelines of Bank Negara. Refer here under 'Prohibition of Credit Facilities to Director and Officer'. So sue me for applying to work at a bank where my siblings have taken any credit facilities from them and to top it off, I became the guarantor.

I've been to several interviews and this is the one I'm hoping to get. The atmosphere of the place is very welcoming, the office is brightly lit, the job description is interesting as I got to travel a lot, the people are nice, everything is the nicest among all interviews I went to. I'm not changing job for the sake of changing job. I've listed down all the thing I want in a job. This one is almost a perfect match. When I got the offer, I was ecstatic as I'll be able to achieve one of the item in my wish list this year (refer here). But then 'the condition'. We will be loosing a few thousand ringgit to comply, not to mention all the hassle. Sigh! Can I get a job offer like this again? I don't know.

It is difficult to talk myself into accepting that maybe it is not meant to be. That there probably are better offer coming my way. Sigh! So difficult. Anyway, I have one option left i.e. having the bank get a written exemption from BNM. That will not be easy. Would I be worth all the effort? I could also ask them again why my brother can't just change his guarantor. Could be technicalities again. Sigh! Please pray for me and in the mean time, I should start job hunting again.