When you wake up in the morning, do not expect to see the evening - live as though today is all that you have. Yesterday has passed with its good and evil, while tomorrow has not yet arrived.
There's nothing that spells tourist louder than a lady with a hat and a camera in her hand, strolling slowly along the river as if she has no care in this world. Many boat drivers call out to the lady offering to bring her sightseeing along the river. She offered a sad smile in return and a shake of her head.
How can she appreciate the beauty of the evening? If only they know the anguish she's feeling in her heart. The helplessness and hopelessness that she's feeling inside. Hopeful that someone would understand but that someone chose to close her heart.
"And it may be that you dislike a thing that is good for you..." (Qur'an 2:216)
Every once in a while, God will test us with some problems to draw us apart from worldly cares and brings us closer to Him. I know that. So I'll accept this as His test and only to Him can I seek solace. Only He will understand every time my heart constricted painfully in remembrance, trying hard to keep my composure while conducting training or act normally around colleagues and friends.
This is not the feeling I want to mark the ending of this year. This is not the feeling I want all the year round actually. But it is not for me to choose the situations I'm in. I can only face the situation as best as I could. And not everything is about us sometimes. Sometimes we are just a spectator on the sideline, wishing the best for our loved ones.
The pleasures of life are short-lived, and more often than not, they are followed by sorrow. Life means responsibility, a journey wherein change is constant and difficulties are relentless in their onslaught.
I know my heart better because of this circumstances. This in itself is a great comfort. La tahzan.
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