07-07-07

*Disjointed fragment of things in my mind today*

I have hopes something special will happen today. But days has come and gone, so fast without us realizing it. I'm aware after a while, nothing special is going to take place. Sometimes things happen, sometimes they don't. Sometimes you're going to get what you wish for, more often you're not.

A colleague got a lump in her breast. She discovered it last year but decided to wait and see. Last week the doctor confirmed the lump has grown by 2mms so she went for surgery. She's fine and I'm glad.

My training to the big bosses last week was sabotaged. The project team stayed back until about 10 at night to finish the test scripts so I can use them in class. Everything was fine. In the morning, we discover the server was down. Somebody switched the server off and has deleted an important file. I think the sabotage was more on the project team than towards the trainer but I got to face all the participants and they don't care about the sabotage. All they know we were not fully prepared. The system was restored some time before 10 a.m. but the damage has been done.

Someone decided to make my life difficult during the training just for the fun of it. She confessed this to my colleague. She's going to leave in 2-3 months time and will not be using the system but she has so many things to comment. The screen design, the process flow, the output layout, etc., which are not my area of responsibility at all. If you have anything to say, why don't you come for the numerous project meeting and UAT. And she's only the secretary to one of the big boss.

We have a new boss and he has been with us for almost 2 months already. I have hopes that he will bring good changes to our unit but during our meeting yesterday, I realize his expectations were not in line with my work style. We will have clashes in future. I can guarantee it. I love my work but I got a life. Even if I sit at home doing nothing at all, I want my personal time. If I wanna do work at home, it will be my choice. He said someone with passion in their job does not have a line between work time and personal time. He also mentions about coming to work on weekend without always expecting anything in return. If I wanna do that, I might as well open up my own company.

How strong can a family bond be? You might thought it is not breakable but it could. The only thing that reminds us of family could just be the DNA and the memories. Parents may ditched their children, children may ditch their parents, siblings could become enemies. Families can become strangers. Anything can happen. If this can happen to families, what do you expect from other people? But God is fair. Sometimes when you loose a family with blood ties, you get a new family - a group of people not related by blood or just a friend who cares enough about your well being.

I discovered my body will feel 'bad' at night after taking iced drinks. I have experience it for quite some time and I don't know the reason. It could be I'm having a weird health problem but yesterday's cendol give it away. It must have been the iced drinks because I didn't get it often. My joints felt weak and heavy and my whole body felt very miserable. I'm declaring myself off ice for a while to confirm it.