Busy Is Good... No?

I have just completed a 10-days training marathon. Phewwww.... There were 2 training sessions. The first session was for 3 days, the 2nd session was for 7 days 6 nights. I felt so claustrophobic staying in one hotel for the whole week. It was only in Shah Alam but we finished very late and start too early in the morning for us to return home. Some participants wrote in the feedback form, "the training should take longer because there were too many things to learn". I was like... oh nooo... I don't think I can handle it. The rainy days didn't help either. Despite having to walk out from the hotel lobby to go to our training room, it just didn't feel like a real open space.

I told hubby the moment the training ends and I was driving back, I felt so free like the birds flying on the sky. I feel like I need to commune with nature. Go jungle trekking somewhere. I certainly need a good massage. I felt like going shopping too. I probably need a new handbag and a few good books. Sigh! Too many things to do before my next training in 3 days time. And the laundry that needs to be done... arrrggghhhh...

Hubby's birthday was on the 3rd. I haven't got the time to plan anything. I managed to make some arrangements with an associate trainer to cover for me the night before hubby's birthday. I was from Shah Alam, hubby's from Gombak. I managed to reached home few minutes before hubby arrived. On the spur of a moment, I decided to stop at a florist and bought hubby some flower. The moment I reached home, opened the grill and door, quickly hid it in one of the rooms. Hubby arrived before I managed to lock the grill so he must've thought I just arrived. Hehehe... my secret was safe.


Fitting flower from me to hubby isn't it :)

We went to have a nice dinner. I wanted to wait till after midnight before I gave hubby the flower but I was so tired I might konked out the moment my head touches the pillow so he got his flower earlier :) Happy Birthday Dearest Hubby.

It's difficult for us when I was busy. I can handle things and situation if hubby's busy... but not when I'm busy. Maybe because when we're not so busy, I can spend time to pamper hubby and be pampered... even if hubby's busy, I can follow him on his outstation trip or his meetings, so I felt a sense of loss when I'm busy. Once when I was having dinner alone at the hotel, the singer sang one romantic songs after another which makes me missed hubby so much. I called hubby just to hear his voice and tell him I missed him. That turned out to be NOT such a good idea. I cried but has to control the quiver in my voice so I wouldn't worry hubby. I just hope people around didn't notice my tears or thought something got into my eyes. Sigh!

Next time I have to be more careful with my training arrangements. In my line of work, that's not really a luxury but we have a choice. We have to live with the choices we made. Money or family, leisure or work, health or wealth... So whatever it is... be it!