Of Challenging Week and Relationship

Last week was a very challenging week. I have to be outstation for 5 days. My trip was not for training but to monitor and do spot check on our trainers. The initial plan was for me to visit 9 locations but due to accommodation arrangements and time constraint, we managed to visit only 8 and because our trainers did not follow plan, I can cut short my monitoring to 4 days. Thank God for that.

The challenges were:-
- the long road trip... a staff from the associate company accompanied me but I'm the only one driving.
- meeting with the big and not so big bosses with difficult demands
- accommodation arrangements not properly done
- watching our trainers not following instructions
- my cranky handphone acting up on me. The battery died only after half day use and will not charge with the new car charger.
- really tiring, energy-draining and not something I want to repeat in future
- missing hubby

I can't fully describe how tired I was. By the third day, I have to muster all my energy to smile and be nice to the demanding bosses and the trainers with so many excuses of why they did not follow the session plan. I feel like I have to drag my tired feet one after another to walk from the administration building to the classes. The heat didn't really help either. I can feel the sweat running down my back. Make-up? What make-up? Whatever powder you put on your face will melt in few minutes. My baju kurung swishy-swashy around my sweaty legs as I walked around the classes. No more 5-days monitoring for me no matter what the associate company says in the future.

I've discussed with hubby about not seeing each other for a 'long time' but in reality, it's a confirmation that we can't survive on long distance relationship. The boons of freelancing is more free time. In those free time, hubby and I are like horseshoe crab. Errr... doesn't sound nice when translated. Let's try again... macam belangkas. We go everywhere and do everything together. The bane of that, after being so used to the presence of one another, we'll feel lost when our other half is not around.

Hubby's already on his pre-merajuk mode when I returned home. We only have one night together before hubby has to leave for few days. He's around for the weekend but it's like being so near yet so far. Yesterday, I was already teary-eyed with a heavy lump in my chest. Thank God hubby's home later in the day.

All this reminded me of the girl who followed me during our trip last week. She's pissed off with one of her colleagues. The female colleague refuses to accompany any trainers on their monitoring rounds because her husband will be 'mati kutu' if left alone for 5 days. The girl, she doesn't even answer her boyfriend's phone call when she's with her friends. She can't stand a clingy person and feels everyone should be career-minded and professional in their work. The spouse should fully understand the partner's job as it requires the same commitment before the marriage so why should they be slacking just because they are married? I smiled as she ranted.

She kinda reminded me of myself when I was single and carefree. Dear girl, I'm sure you'll feel differently when you're married :) I know there are married couples who are very independent of one another and not mutually exclusive in any way whatsoever but if you're like most people I know, I'm sure you'll understand once you're married. You'll find out what 'mati kutu' feels like and the 'lost' feeling when your other half's not around.

I'm glad last week was over. I'm actually in the midst of preparing my monitoring report and claims but blogging feels more interesting. It has been a while since I last blogged and I'm blogging very sparsely nowadays. I have many other distractions :)