Outcast

It hurts when you are deemed an outcast because of who or what you represent instead of who you really are. Normally I couldn't be bothered about others opinion. This time it really hurts because hubby has to concede to those opinion. This will be a difficult week for me. Everytime I remembers about it, I have to take a deeeeeppp.... breath.

I hope I'll be given the strength to pass this test. Like everything that has happened to me, only Allah knows the wisdom behind every fate and destiny. Only He knows why I have to go through this. Those people, even hubby, are only fulfilling His will of giving me this lesson in life.

Do not cry coz my head will hurt later. Do not be sad because those people will be enjoying themselves and do not bother about my feelings anyway. Easier said then done but I have to for my sake. I have to keep reminding myself of the bigger picture of life instead of this tiny scar that might be forgotten few years down the road.

Hopefully this week will pass quickly. Hopefully I'll be fine. Hope is the only thing I have. Laa tahzan...

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