End of 2011

I didn't really keep track of days and dates these past few days. I only bother about how many weeks pregnant I am. It feels as if the world stop for a while since I experienced heavy nausea and vomiting. I thought yesterday is 31st and wonder why didn't anyone in FB mentioned about new year. Today, I looked at the dates on my handphone. Owhh... it's today. The world didn't stop moving. Everyone goes on with their lives and things happen... unexpected things. My adorable 1++ yo nephew passed away. His funeral was yesterday. Everyone was shocked. Who would have thought a bubbly little boy playing energetically at MIL's place over the weekend would not be around the next day. I played with him a few days ago at SIL's place. Inna lillahi wainna ilaihi rajiuun... I hope SIL will be strong. I can't imagine how hard it must be for her and her family.

As for me, a day means something when I managed to hold some food down. My gynae gives me something to help prevent vomiting. I still throw up but managed to hold most of the food down. On the day I tried to go without the Dimenhydrinate, I throw up mercilessly. Yesterday, I ate some rice and cabbage cooked in coconut milk. A small victory when I didn't throw up. Then, I managed to hold down fish fillet burger. I throw up a bit in the evening but it is not the gut churning kinda throw up. I just didn't dare eat anything after that. Today, I managed to eat something too. I wanted to throw up just now but I lie down for a while to rest. It passed. I hope it will hold till much later. That is success for me these days.

I've been drinking coconut juice whenever I can to prevent from dehydration. I've heard many version of some who say those in first trimester can't drink coconut juice as it might cause miscarriage and another version that says it's good. I go with the latter. Logic tells me I need all the nutrients in the coconut juice just like when I get diarrhea. If people say pineapple is not good, my logic tells me it makes sense since it is acidic. But coconut juice not good... my logic doesn't seem to agree with that. Anyway, I hope everything will be OK for me this time.

Yesterday, I felt pain at my lower abdomen. When pressed, the abdomen felt very hard. Today no lower abdominal pain. I just thought my tummy looks larger. It could just be my feelings. It is going to grow larger anyway. I just thought a pregnant woman who looked pregnant got more sympathies than those who didn't look pregnant yet. I did feel a bit weird going for the seat allocated for pregnant ladies expecting someone to tell me off. Whatever it is, I just can't wait to feel much better, have more energy and have better appetite. So there goes the end of 2011 with ramblings about my pregnancy.

For the new year, I'm hoping for better me... I'm gonna be a mother... and good things for our big family. Hubby's worried there's no new projects now. I'm sure things will get better insyaAllah. Next year, companies would have new budget for new projects whether there's election or not. Rezeki comes from Him. I hope I'd be able to conduct some training to prepare for baby's arrival financially. I still have some pending payment to take us through for few more months. Ohhh.. and my Master's class will begin next weekend. Sigh! Can't wait to see my classmates... can't say the same for the potential workload though. OK... here's signing off for 2011.