New Year 2012

It's almost a week into the new year. I've also passed 3 months of my pregnancy few days ago. The question of whether I'll get better after my first trimester is now answered. I'm not. Yesterday was just one of the difficult days I have to go through. I woke up feeling hungry and urging hubby to find something to eat. We eat outside... it was a bright morning with blue sky just the way I like it. The moment we reached home, I ran to the sink. After purging everything, I fell asleep for a while and woke up feeling hungry again. Urged hubby to tapau an early lunch. We reached home and I only managed a few bites. I really can't eat anymore. Managed to hold on for a while, took another nap in the afternoon and guess what... woke up feeling hungry again. I tried to eat a few more bites of the rice I tapau but can't. Tried koko krunch, managed to eat a little. Feeling really hungry but incapable of eating anything. After a while, tried eating a slice of bread with Milo. After Maghrib prayer, throw up again. That really makes me drained and no energy. We went out for dinner and I ordered tomyam. I wanted to be careful coz tomyam is quite spicy and I have an empty stomach but it feels nice to be able to eat something. The barley drinks I ordered also felt refreshing. On the way back started feeling queasy again. Hubby suggested I go to sleep to prevent from vomiting. I tried but I can feel the pain in my tummy, trying to purge things out. Then I remembered about acupressure technique to prevent queasiness. I tried it. I've tried them before but never really took notice of whether it works. But this time, I noticed it really did. I feel asleep the moment I felt better and only woke up at 3 a.m. when hubby crawled into bed. He said he couldn't sleep. I told hubby about the acupressure and felt happy I found that it works. Last night hubby was watching TV while I was trying to sleep. I moaned and groaned, toss and turn, called Allah's name, called hubby's name, tried to play games on my phone to distract myself from queasy tummy... all didn't work. Today, whenever I felt queasy, I pressed the acupressure point in between my thumb and index finger. I still feel nausea but at least I didn't throw up. Even the medication to prevent vomiting given by my gynae didn't work all the time so this is great.

My master's class will begin this Sunday. I already informed my classmates I would need all the help I can get to get through this semester. They have been a great help all this while. I don't know whether I can sit for 4 hours in class and focus on the lecture. Anyway, we'll see how that goes. My training next week has been canceled. That's a great relief. Actually, my associate company didn't want to continue associating with this particular company due to some matters not handled well by them. I now have to accept that I'm not well to conduct training programs till God knows when. No training means no income. I have to carefully spend my money till baby is due. I belief Allah has provided 'rezeki' for baby. I also have to find means to generate income other ways. 2012 will probably be challenging year financially but I have to stay positive for baby. Baby is due in July and that will be followed by confinement period and taking care of our new born. I'll probably be up and running October onwards.

I have no resolution this new year. All I want is to be healthy and deliver a healthy baby.