The Special Man - Part 2

I wanna talk about this man. I missed him so much. Ever since I got pregnant, it has been all about me. My nausea and vomiting and dizziness and stuff like that. I still experience all those feelings but I am much better than before. I'm still not pass the spell but I didn't throw up all the time. I got hungry like every two hours and then I have to keep still to make sure the food stays down. I need to burp properly so the gas won't force the food out. I have headaches quite frequently now but all in all, I felt much better then when I was throwing up all the time.

I have some moments of respite from all the hormones every now and then. I managed to spend time with hubby like we used to do before the pregnancy hormones took over my bodily functions. We sit and cuddle and talk about sweet nothings, remembering the moments we first met, the moment we realize how much we care for each other and all the important moments in our life. It was very sweet. I also remember the time when I was alone, how much I enjoyed my activities, the stillness and peacefulness of the night...

There were also time when I thought how I could care for someone just like everyone else who have someone special in their life but there is no one important in my life (other than family of course). I just accept the fact that God has not given me the gift of care and love because there really is no one that I feel a special connection with. Maybe God has some other arrangements for me. Probably the turtle needs me or some NGOs helping people somewhere on this planet... I don't know. I was just waiting for the calling.

I received the calling... but not from the turtle or the NGOs. It was from him... and from that moment on, God has given me the gift of being able to care and love for someone. It really is a gift from Allah because I know I can't just flip a switch and love someone. If I could, it would have happen a long time ago with a friend or colleague or client. The special man in my life, whom I love dearly and I know loves me too, is a loving husband and will be a wonderful father to our baby. It is a wonderful feeling knowing someone somewhere loves you as much as you love him and it really is a great gift from Him... Alhamdulillah.

If you happen to not have someone special in your life yet, it is OK. Enjoy your life and appreciate the gift of being able to see the beautiful creation of this world and try to find your calling. You'll never know where it might lead you but it will definitely be interesting. I have been in both situation and experienced the beauty and greatness, and appreciate both. I am now appreciating the presence of the special man in my life.

He loves the outdoor, LOVES massages, his mom's cooking, Mamak food, veges and fruits, loves sweetened drink more than plain water, cepat merajuk (in his defense he said only because he loves me, he will not bother to merajuk with other people), and many other attributes that is only special to my dear hubby. The beauty of marriage is, your partner is the handsomest and sexiest people on the planet :) When I first met hubby, I thought he is not handsome at all. Now I can't keep my eyes off him. Men with tummy... a real turn off. Hubby's tummy... sexy hehehe... so is every part of him. Maybe this is the secret of Mawaddah wa Rahmah (Al-Ruum: verse 21). To this wonderful husband of mine, just know that I love you so much. I may have to focus on me again depending on this pregnancy hormone, and then when the baby arrives, it will all be about the baby and we may not have that frequent cuddling moments that we used to have... this entry will remind me that having you in my life is a wonderful gift and I appreciate every moment we spend together. TQ abang for being there and I love you so much.