3 Weeks Warded

Dah genap 3 minggu jadi penghuni wad di hospital. Satu pencapaian for me, for hubby and our family. Tomorrow will be my 26th weeks.

Ada masa stress datang menjengah. Secara luarannya macam orang sihat jer. Terasa nak minta balik and sanggup datang check up every week if I have to. But after the discovery of continued bulging after cerclage, mula tukar mindset. Yes; I need to be warded so accept it. The longer I'm warded means better chances for baby to grow well inside my womb.

Aktiviti harian:

- Woke up early as nurse did her 5 a.m. fetal heart check. Normally I didn't go back to sleep. Sometimes a short walk to get hot water for my thermos, go to the weighing machine, get rid of my dirty laundry and get fresh uniforms from the linen closet.
- Fajr prayer and open the curtains at my windows around 7 a.m.
- Sit and socialize with my roommates while having breakfast as the cleaner mop the floor and nurses did our bed. Medicine time, BP and fetal heart check
- Shower, HO visit, MO visit and gynae visit.  Sometimes medic students come to interview us.
- Lunch time and visiting hours. I normally get visited by family and university friends. A school friend is a gynae here but other school friends have not come for a visit yet. I just managed to keep in touch with university friends and many came for a visit. Nobody from my associate company has come for a visit yet. And i have not informed any of my ex colleague. I know I don't have normal colleagues and working arrangements like most people but still that should be a clear sign in life where our priority should lie.
- Resting time, afternoon visit by HO and MO, routine check up by nurses and visiting hours again.
- Dinner time, night visit by HO and MO, routine check by nurses and retire for the night. This can be a challenging time as after prayers, zikr, reading the quran and getting ready for bed... look at the watch and it shows eh... it's just 8.30 or 9.00 or 9.30. My sleep time depends on many factors like my ability to sleep the night before, whether I took afternoon nap and WA group discussion among other things.

I'm not aware how much I've grown since we're always in uniform so tak perasan baju mana yang dah ketat kalau di rumah. But hubby said dah nampak tembam :p

I can live with the food walaupun pernah nangis tengok gambar ayam goreng. Hubby and friends memang rajin menyampaikan hajat nak makan apa bila ada masa dan kesempatan. I pun didn't demand yang bukan2. However, the food here is really edible and sesekali tak berselera tu biasa lah. Ni wad bukan hotel kan. Sedangkan lauk hotel pun boleh jemu dan jelak kalau kena kursus seminggu.

Roommates ok jer so far. Tapi baru2 ni masuk sorang yang dah 33 weeks and akan duduk sampai bersalin. Boleh ler berkawan tapi jenis bawa kawan2 dari bilik lain datang berbual kuat2. Aduh... so not my style. Malas lah nak join sangat.

Ada2 masa hubby pulak stress. He has his moments too. Balik ke rumah yang kosong, jumpa sekejap2 di hospital, pack work schedule that requires rescheduling to accommodate hospital visits, rindu jangan cerita lah. What can I say... cabaran juga tu kan.

Friends say it will all be worth it. I believe it will too. Cuma nak menyampaikan saat impian jadi kenyataan tu terasa lama sangat.

Social interaction online banyak membantu. Tapi bila mood dah down, tak terasa nak melayan chat sangat. Zikir dan bacaan al-Quran juga dapat buat tenang sekejap. Cuma bila teringat kan sesuatu perkara yang buat kita down, mood down balik.

That's how it has been. That's how it will be till an undetermined time. At the very least everyone hope baby can hold on till 7 months. At most of course we wish for full term baby.