There are times when all I can hear are sad songs around me. Bereaved, melancholy, mournful songs. This is one of those times.
Nothing specific triggered it actually. Just one of those moments where sadness choose to rear its ugly head. The weather seems to be reflecting my feeling with its dull gray skies. I can’t even see any cloud with silver linings. Only plain gray sky as far as my eyes can see.
Among the events that amplify this forebodingness... the car gets so dirty with bird droppings even when parked away from the trees, and some imbecile moron thought scratching my car while chitchatting with their girlfriend / boyfriend is fun, the laksa at the stall is not ready when I feel a craving for it, and all the little things that didn’t go my way these past few days.
Things don’t happen without a reason. If I dig deeper in my heart, I might find it. Or, I probably knew the reason already but not willing to deal with it yet. Or could there be a bigger unknown reason? I hope I can snap out of it soon. I don’t like this feeling :(
Sunflower gives the connotation of cheerfulness, bright, jolly, merry... you get the idea! However, if any content in this blog didn't fit the cheerfulness implied by its name, look at it this way... I'm putting down all the wretchedness, gloom, melancholy feeling in here so I can continue living up to the expectation of making the association to the sunflower.
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