Knick knacks...

I told hubby I'm feeling much better than last night. Indeed I am. But still every inch of my body needs to be knead and massage. Sigh! I'm too tired to go anywhere today though. My osim foot massager has been very helpful.

Yesterday I have a 1-day training, co-conducting with another trainer and yet my feet were painful. The joints, the thigh muscles, the calves, the sole... I repositioned myself many times in bed last night trying to find a comfortable angle so my body can have its rest. Does that mean I have been out of practice after a long break or I need better shoes or I just need to find something else to do as my feet can't take standing for long hours anymore? What else can I do that will give me the flexibility of time and reasonable income for my needs? That requires a lot of soul searching.

There's also the short guilty feeling when my co-trainer mentioned about rezeki, big or small, it doesn't matter to him. Everything is important. I HAVE been complaining about the small travelling and lodging reimbursement for one training in my previous entry. But then again, I do feel justified in my reasonable demand since there really is a lot of work involved. Bukannya pergi lenggang kangkung jual air liur. If that rezeki is not meant for me, it is OK since that means others will benefit. If they can't agree to my request,  very likely the training akan jadi rezeki orang lain who doesn't mind. That thought makes me feel so much better.

I have a feeling that I don't have as many training offers compared to similar time period in previous years which I attributed to the upcoming general election. Maybe it's just me. Whatever it is, I have to be prepared for all possibilities. The total in my current account can hold for another 3 months insyaAllah. Emergency savings account, another 3 months. Other savings, hopefully I won't have to go there.

That's what I normally do since I stopped working full time. That is, evaluating my financial situation on worse case scenario. How long can current standard of living hold without new income and stuff like that, which will give signals of whether I should worry and implement contingency plans or not. The way I'm living my life now is much like in 4-hour Work Week. Just that I don't work 4-hours a week. More like few days in a month, or about 2-3 months in total in a year. Whoever wishes to retire young SHOULD read this book.

I am thinking of alternatives to what I'm doing now. Something which is more nationwide and global reach. Hoping for great revelation from Him, who gives rezeki, knowledge and barakah. Aamiinn...