Last Sunday, arwah Mak Itam passed away after having a fever. She's a relative from hubby's side. I didn't go to her funeral but really mourn her loss. I remember visiting her with MIL for the first time and she stared at me for a long time. She must be wondering who I was before MIL interjected and said I'm her daughter in law. I didn't managed to visit her with hubby during the first two Raya we're married. But afterwards, we visited her without fail every Raya and I will never forget her kindness.
When hubby reached home yesterday , he also shared the news of my BIL's BIL who also passed away. BIL's BIL was still very young. BIL got married early last year and I remember his in-law's family when attending their wedding. Al-Fatihah to both. While we mourn the loss of dear ones, we must also remember our clock is ticking. We will never know when our time will come. Young or old, it doesn't really matter. Sometimes, we prayed death for our loved ones to end their pain and misery from illness, sometimes we will be surprised a healthy and young ones will also passed away for so many reasons as Allah has ordained from the day we're born.
Am I ready to meet Him? Am I ready to lose hubby? I have no answer. My prayer is for me and my loved ones to meet Him free from sin, have loved ones who will pray for us, and that we leave something behind that will help others so we will benefit in the other life as well. I'm far from ready to meet Him. Every day I'm struggling for His blessings. Everyday I try to please hubby as pleasing my husband is a way to please Him. Some days I feel I succeeded while some days I feel I don't. Alhamdulillah I still woke up the next day so I can try again. Don't anybody dare say I'm oppressed as this is part of my religion and I embrace it for Allah's pleasure.
This life is about preparing for the next life. Allah also said to enjoy His bounties on earth: food, beautiful places, love, human sufferings, so we will be more thankful and be reminded of His power and glory. May I have time to explore the beauties in this world and have time to be a good servant to Him.
May arwah rest in peace and Allah blessed her soul.
Sunflower gives the connotation of cheerfulness, bright, jolly, merry... you get the idea! However, if any content in this blog didn't fit the cheerfulness implied by its name, look at it this way... I'm putting down all the wretchedness, gloom, melancholy feeling in here so I can continue living up to the expectation of making the association to the sunflower.
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