60 Days

Surah Al-Qasas, Ayat 24:

َرَبِّ إِنِّي لِمَا أَنزَلْتَ إِلَيَّ مِنْ خَيْرٍ فَقِيرٌ

Wahai Tuhanku, sesungguhnya aku ini fakir kepada apa sahaja kebaikan yang Engkau turunkan. 

Today is 60 days after delivery. I'm reading these books not because I'm still sad. I'm feeling much better. Encouraging words and shifting my focus on hereafter helps a lot. I read the books to maintain my focus. Many verses shared in the books is very calming. Many lessons from Allah's prophets helped me look at the bigger picture and putting things in perspective.

Friends have been calling and sending messages to ask how I'm doing and hoping I'm not left alone especially when hubby went to work. I'm fine Alhamdulillah. I'm touched by their concern. It has been difficult but I managed Alhamdulillah. Hubby has helped me cope whenever I'm down. Baby has given me strength to maintain my sanity and become a better Muslim so I can meet him in Jannah. Also with Allah's blessings I experience this calmness and strength. There were times when I'm still sad. But that moment will pass. This world we live in is just temporary. Our eternity will be in the hereafter.

I hope I will forever maintain my focus. Not just in this moment of great challenge. InsyaAllah.